I been staring at these walls for so damn long
Light ain't comin in now it's dim and all but gone
Stuck on my chair staring at the screen waiting for answers but no one ever texts me so I'm gettin' little antsy
Never mind
It's all a state of mind
I'm backwards
I defy time
When I'm angry
I look for clever lines
To give the impression that I'm
Not just some loner with no life
It's been days since I've last been outside
I bet the world's ended and I'm
Just way behind
Far back no circle and I'm outta the loop
Now I'm stuck because I lost my damn hula hoop
I'm trapped in my room
Don't got no place to bloom
Flower seeds ain't workin
Gotta worship the moon
The sun's gone
Nat told me so
Life's like TSV
My daily mood is low
Verses confusing as Eva
Watched it four times
Still don't get why I'm hated
Feels like I'm growing in phases
Lost in a daze
Tell em oh see you later
Cuz I don't want to see your face anymore
I want to live life alone without issue
Stuck on the wall of the dance floor
Or in my room with no tissues
So when I hit up the Insta
And look for something to do
Distract my mind from the image of you
Brings me back into the loop
Stuck in a vicious cycle
In no place but my room
What a mistake
Deleted the app
And now I've got nothing to do
I'm done with this fantasy
I'm done with reality
I want to go to sleep
But then I'm trapped in my own tomb
Help me
God help me
Just wake me up
You know what to do
Damn
Was I in the wrong?
Or was I in the right?
I don't feel well so I guess something's up
And now all I want to do is wake up
From this nightmare
From this euphoria
Euphoria is all I want now
Euphoria
Not what I need now
Okay so let's take a step back and look at this for a moment
I only feel happy in my dreams
Does that make it right?
Does that make it wrong?
I guess it's part of life. It's a part of this stage that I'm going through
I won't lie, it's pretty tough, but in the end, that's the beauty in it, right?
Like a metamorphisis, into a butterfly. It's a shame that it's almost over
I was really learning a lot
About myself
About my place in this world
Maybe life is just a dream
I'd be okay with that
The problem isn't the dream, it's waking up that gets me
Change is what kills. And it's hard. It's hard to accept change
But now I'm just going through the motions
One step at a time
Approaching a dstiny
Living through the phases of madness
Euphoria is all I want now
Euphoria
Not what I need now