I been told to sit down and think about making it short
Overthinking is my enemy, I would trade it all
If I could live a day as a brainless freak
No conscious, no misgivings
As a stable soul, as a stand-alone, just to finish my songs and go back to sleep
And then I wake up, it's five in the morning
I'm sweating, I'm sobbing
My laptop's gone and my pride's missing
Someone broke into my house
Will I stand and face it
Another f*cked up dream
It's getting hard to perceive
Am I here alone? No one's coming home
Now gimme a sign so I can f*cking breathe
What's this place again
Is all of that even real
I don't know where I've been lately
I barely can stand on my feet
Everyday is a struggle and yet I keep moving forward
Does that mean something's still there
I'm tired of playing the victim, tired of being tired at all
And I don't care if the enemy's still here, I'll keep dragging it with me til I run out of air
Nothing can stop me at this point
Even though I don't know where I'll go or what I'll do
I'll stand up again and again... And run
It feels like I've been granted
A curse that tears me down just to show me that I am still alive
I know it's been a while
And if the wolves come at my door
Well let them know I went through it all
I stand I fall, this is my war