what they'll say Video (MV)

I never thought I'd feel this way
Cause now I wish I could escape
The mess I made in my own brain
Can't be myself, I won't deny
I'm living in so many hidden lies
I'm making the same wish every night
Wish I could control the things I can't change
Would I be happier leaving things this way?
I'll stay alone another day
Endless thoughts always running through my mind
I can't shut em' out even when I try
I'll tell a lie to keep me safe
Cause I'm too worried about what they'll say
I'm getting tired of all these questions
Of who I am and I avoid it
Cause that's how I take control
It just feels dehumanizing
To have everybody talk about
The things that you don't show
Am I seeing something different?
My whole life I've been defenseless
Became someone I don't know
Wish I could control the things I can't change
Would I be happier leaving things this way?
I'll stay alone another day
Endless thoughts always running through my mind
I can't shut em' out even when I try
I'll tell a lie to keep me safe
Cause I'm too worried about what they'll say
Is this a matter of waiting?
But I know nothing is changing
Should I forget the things you said?
Is this all inside my head?
I'll just sit in this dark closet
I'll be everything you wanted
I'll reinvent myself for you
Cause I can't control things I can't change
I'm not happy with leaving things this way
I'll let you know another day
Endless thoughts always running through my mind
I can't shut em' out even when I try
I'll tell a lie to keep me safe
Cause I'm too worried about what they'll say