Nic Gyalson - Still Afraid of Pain Lyrics

Rocket engines brought you far away
But now you say you're looking
Back at me, back at me
And you're moving so fine
The movie's all right
And the crew is doing great
While I'm just sinking in this deadly state of mind
I'll never have the guts to be myself again
Crushed, crying, crashed and still afraid of pain

Those days are gone, just like my will
And even though I'm done
I know that I will never be relaxed, but drunk
Yeah, beating myself up
Until my brain explodes
And everything turns black

But the movie's all right
You're moving so fine
There's no one else around
I take the bait without a frown
I love your smile
I know I cannot hide
I wouldn't stop your hand
There's no use to pretend

I'm afraid 'cause I'm not sure
If my reaction was insane
I've always known awareness hurts
Like breathing; I had to run away
I wrote this song to let you know
You touched me and made me cry
Now, when the music's gone
Survival instinct is my friend