Niar Nevar - Nightmares Lyrics

Let you deep in my mind its defined
Try to look for my soul but you'll never find
I got mental mountains that I'm really tryna climb
Think i f*ck with you, you crossed a really thin line
I've seen hell and its sweet really well designed
Its like a mix of all emotions and they all combined
I tried to talk to god but he ain't replied
I ain't even have to die I'm already dead inside
Get the f*ck up off my dick I apologized
Yeah I know I f*cked up, I'm not f*cking blind
I ain't got no spot in heaven I declined
I got a contract with the devil I already signed

I acknowledged, all of my mistakes
Going off on me like homie hit the brakes
Saying all I do is hurt the world I'm locked up is cell called my mind
Got a life sentence and I can't escape

In my mind its always cold
Heart is frozen
Soul is freezing
On the outside I'm controlled
Devils chosen
And I'm pleading

Deep down nothing feels like home and the broken-ness increasing
When I'm sleeping I get overwhelmed with nightmares I ain't dreaming

I need love I don't need therapy
I need the truth I need clarity
I asked for honesty not bullshit don't you joke with me
I gave you everything you wanted, I wanted a guarantee

I just wish I felt something but I can't because I'm numb
But its your fault that I've become everything that I've become
I tried to make a f*cking difference you kicked me under the rug
I've been dropped by a million, and then some

In my nightmares
I'm strapped up in the chair
I'm wanting someone save me but no ones ever there
When I wake up its the same
Like nobody's aware
I'm dying the most painful death and no one f*cking cares