Niar Nevar - Killme Lyrics

Lying on floor
My body it hurts
It hurts more than before
I keep asking for more
Because i couldn't write this shit if i didn't feel pain down to my core
My mind is a war
Fighting over the same same battle
Fighting with the shit that I store
Tell when can i close the door
To the castle in my mind
Man i can't do this shit anymore
And i can't ignore
All of my life been solving the emotions in a drawer
Now i let it out and i roar
Fly high like i soar
Over all the head all these lames that just don't give a shit
Someday momma gonna come home and check on me with my wrists slit
Ill be deep down in the pits
Of hell
I'm sad and promise that you couldn't tell
I'm to scared to admit that I'm dead inside
I can't sit here and just hide
Anymore
This agony that the people all adore
I was seven when i learned how to tie a noose
I was 10 when i realized what these girls can do
And i was 13 when i thought that suicide was a good excuse
I was 15 when i knew i couldn't handle the abuse
F*ck you
I'm done
You iced the cake
I was close
But I'm stronger
I will not allow you to send me to my ultimate departure
My sadness is special
I understand death is essential
I'm hurting on a whole other level
Please kill me so that i can meet the devil
I see him in my nightmares every night
He's standing over me when i wake up
I know he's not there though because i see the light
I pull the covers off and i sip the pain out the cup