Niar Nevar - Blood Stains Lyrics

I dont know anymore
Do i go
Do i stay
Do i run from the pain
Like before
Cant ignore
Stare out the window
Walk out the front door
Wont return

If i go
I wont come back
Dying slow
Ill end it fast

All my life i been overwhelmed
With depression
But you cant tell
Wear a smile like a mask
After death no going back

Death seems really appetizing
Cuz lifes just a trap
Um constantly fighting
I run and cover my tracks

Blood stains all on the walls
Everyone believes whats false
Lifes a game and im the pawn
If pain is rain then im a storm

I know what it feels like
To feel to far from home
Physically i have one
But inside my mind i dont

I wish i could show you
Or put it into words
What my pain looks like
Or tell you why i always hurt

I cant no matter how hard i try
I cant show you
Guess youll have to trust me
In that case youll be the first

Blood stains all on the walls
Everyone believes whats false
Lifes a game and im the pawn
If pain is rain then im a storm

I know what it feels like
To feel to far from home
Physically i have one
But inside my mind i dont

I wish i could show you
Or...
I always hurt

I cant no matter how hard i try
I cant show you
Guess youll have to trust me
In that case youll be the first