Ngtherapper - Imperfect. Lyrics

We all sin
We've been lost in it
That's just how it is
When I came to Jesus
My life was in pieces, no Reese's
That's why I do this
I need to prove this, life isn't a waste
I'm not saying to be religious, that's all fake
But Jesus made a way when He took all of the blame
And when I was broken, I called on God's name
Not in vain, but because I was in pain
I kept on going through the same way
Kept on going my way, but my way, was not God's way
It was the opposite
I was running away
And I was never able to contemplate
How God can come and die for my mistakes
I was filled with hate
I tried to keep my anger in the attic
But I fell in love with her
And now I'm the addict
I tried to hand all my pain to God
But I always took it back
I don't know how to deal with that
I didn't want to deal with her crap
I keep on pushing friends back
And that's when anger comes out to play
She wants it her way
I'm her slave
I wanna get away
Oh, this body of pain!
What will I gain? If I keep on playing?
What am I saying?
I'm on my knees, praying
I don't know who I am anymore
God help me!
I want to live happily
Give me a way out, God, please!
I threatened my friend, and I don't want to do that again!
Please, God help me!
But nevertheless, Your Will be done
I'll trust you in the long run
Because I believe that you
Can make me new
Back then, though, I had lost sight of you
I know I'm not a righteous dude
But you are, God, so
What's stopping you?
Is this a trial?
I'm in denial!
I don't want to be, but You're not helping me!
I'm sorry, am I sinning?
Because I know for sure I'm not winning
I'm just a man
But God, I know you can
Rid me from this spirit of anger
I wanna hang her
She has me hammered, to my cross
Can you please kill her?
I'm a sinner
But I never said I was a killer
You're the God who knew me in my mother's womb
And I don't wanna hold this anger to the tomb
I've kicked her out my room
But that's all I can do
So I ran to
The God I know who, can
Save me
I'm not wealthy, I can't give you anything
But I want to be made healthy
So please, God...
Help me