NeverxHappy - aware Lyrics

My final bout
Versus my head, feeling down
Not impressed with the sound
Of still sticking around
This feeling in my chest
Weigh me down, I'm a mess
Is this all just a test?
Am I failing again?
Fear of never being good enough
Finding any reason to think I should just give up
I have to get ahead and listen to those I love
Keep my head up in the clouds
I'm still sticking around
I'm lost
In my head
Again
I wont
Pretend
That I don't care
I'm too aware of everything
I'm lost
In my head
Again
I wont
Pretend
That I don't care
I'm too aware of everything
Am I stuck with a curse?
I'm still feeling the hurt
I can't think of what's worse
Never quenching this thirst
I stay pouring it up
Flor de cane in my cup
I stay riding my luck
I can't make this shit up
I stay overthinking everything
Questioning how I ever came to deserve anything
I wish time would turn back
I'm lost
In my head
Again
I wont
Pretend
That I don't care
I'm too aware of everything
I'm lost
In my head
Again
I wont
Pretend
That I don't care
I'm too aware of everything
I want to fall apart
It's not time to depart
I'll try to make it far
You have to see me for my heart
I'm too aware
Cause I'm feeling scared
I'm lost
In my head
Again
I wont
Pretend
That I don't care
I'm too aware of everything
I'm lost
In my head
Again
I wont
Pretend
That I don't care
I'm too aware of everything