Neva Sweeney - An Apology to My Parents Lyrics

Lately I've been waking up late
And fallin' asleep with tears on my face
My dreams are my favorite place
Only when I sleep, I feel safe
My room's a mess but I am too
Have you felt the darkness of when your world turns on you
I'm low on money and self esteem
I want to try but it's so exhausting

I'm sorry Dad to disappoint you
I'm not working hard enough
I swear I'm trying but I'm stuck
I'm sorry Mom for misbehaving
And not sticking around where I feel safe and sound
She's on her own and I wanna bring her home

I don't know how I'm supposed to breathe
With all this pressure laying and sinking down in me
I don't know why but I feel weak
Like one little kick could finish me off and take the rest of me
I'm happy enough until I get home
I feel okay until I'm alone
My mind's another story and my heart's another place
I need to get away

I'm sorry Dad to disappoint you
I'm not working hard enough
I swear I'm trying but I'm stuck
I'm sorry Mom for misbehaving
And not sticking around where I feel safe and sound
She's on her own and I wanna bring her home

I'm sorry Dad
I'm sorry Mom

I'm sorry Dad that I've changed
Went from trying my best to trying to stay sane
I'm sorry Mom that I've lost touch
I miss you and I miss myself just as much
She's on her own I need help to bring her home