I've been hiding from my pain
Buried deep afraid to name
Every hurt every scar
Shaped the person that you see so far
But now I see the damage done
To those I love to everyone
I don't want to bleed on you
For wounds that time has yet to soothe
I need to heal to mend my heart
Before I tear your world apart
Can't let my pain poison the air
When you're the one who truly cares
I see your eyes they're filled with hope
A love so pure helps me to cope
But shadows linger haunt my mind
Afraid that I'll be cruel and blind
So I step back give me space
To find my footing find my place
I don't want to bring you down
With all the baggage that I've found
I need to heal to mend my heart
Before I tear your world apart
Can't let my pain poison the air
When you're the one who truly cares
I promise you I'm trying hard
To open up to drop my guard
I want to love you whole and true
Without my past hurting you
So I'll take this time to find my way
Heal the wounds clear the gray
And when I'm ready I'll be there
With open arms and a heart to share