Neu7ron - Pacing Lyrics

Dropped a couple of tabs
Went and got lost in the forest
Only way I'm leaving holy
Is if I get filled with bullets
I'm overstimulated
My mind has been losing storage
I push for isolation
Lost focus of what's important
So

Back and forth
In my mind I pace-in
Search of a trace
Of inner strength
I've had a taste
But cant replace
This empty space inside

I've been off the grind
Too many times
I need to redefine
My thoughts with these lines
And if it rhymes
That would be great

But what if i make a mistake
And don't catch it before the fans
Would they realize I'm only human
And keep clappin their hands?
And if

You think I do this for money
I don't
I would do this every single day
Even if i was broke because

This is what I do to keep myself sane
Only place inside my head
Where I control the domain
Only place inside my head
Where I control the domain
Only place inside my head
Where I control the- uhh

Only method found to explain
All the beliefs, pain, strain
That I got on my brain
And I can empathize
With anybody who will relate

Back and forth
In my mind I pace-in
Search of a trace
Of inner strength
I've had a taste
But cant replace
This empty space inside
I hope

To spread the love coast to coast
And be I'm the grossest host to boast
Like honey on toast
I'm runny with flows
Crow low blows
Snow throws reload
To make a bloke, choke
In front of his folks
No joke

I'm poking bears of the premises
An apprentice with prejudice
And a delicate eddifice
Filled with menacing messages
And a venemous nemesis
In a closet of skeletons
Clogging up the entrances
Wonder

If I created
The mindset stated
I seem persuaded
Emotions feel jaded
From trauma that's faded
Health has degraded
Thoughts feeling vacant
Well
Is this related?
I Don't
Want to say it
These feelings invaded
In the dark they waited
All writhing with hatred
Remaining negated
They demodulated my happiness
Soon dictated my distress
Bottle feelings to compress
Memories I have repressed
True thoughts I can not express
Throttle the cadence but I digress

Nonetheless
I regress
To pace
Back and forth in my mind
In search of a trace
Of inner strength
I've had a taste
But cant replace
This empty space inside
I'm alright
Feel contrite
In spite
Holding hold a light
That burns away all my darkness
But I'm really exhausted
And it feels like
I'm running out of all of my options