Neonblack - death is a supple suitor. Lyrics

I'm that nigga
I'm that nigga for real
Hit you at four in the morn'
Just to see how you feel
'Cuz I'm that nigga
I'm that nigga, alright
No matter how hard you try
I'mma be on your mind
Yea I'm that nigga
Only thing that's promised
How I get you?
Take you, like I took Thomas
The first
Ride around in my hearse
You seen a few things
Familiar with the curse
Of human misery
Tell me this don't sound exciting:
"No more pain and no more hiding"
I'm the one that you confide in
Know you always think of dying
You could cease to exist
Don't believe permanence
Everything succumbs
To my gun
In the end
I'm that nigga
So just give me what you owe me
Love is simple
Just trust in what you believe in
All that negativity
I will take your energy
Slowly homie
You know we going
For eternity
Why not come through early
Surely
You're just thinking all the things you're supposed to be
Matter of fact
Existential Stockholm
Nigga, this is not home
Put that lead
Up to your head
And maybe you could find one
What do you think of that?

I ain't got no soul
Catch me rotting in this hole
We ain't got no permanence
Watch the universe unfold
Blink and you miss the show
Think before the missiles blow
Everything away
Ain't no time to pray

Don't you know I want you
Don't you?
Don't you know I love you
Don't you?
But it's not the time
No, it's not the time

Love has played you fool
Cuz everything you do
So selfish
You're
Too selfish

If we got together that would be too selfish
If we loved each other that would be so selfish

I hate the thoughts in my head
I love the thought of my death
I hate the love in my heart
I love the ones I adore
I always feel far
Melanin from the stars
You can call me a nigga
Guess I am what I am
Been depressed
Since the days of recess
I think I do good
Then I just regress
And I embrace it
They say I'm selfish
Well f*ck it I'll be that then
Learn to never depend
On anyone
No matter what
I'm here for me
Inability to feel if another human care for me
Is it nature or nurture
Taught myself to be virtuous
All it took was the death of hero, my greatest love
That was my grandpa
I saw the world for what it was
In the words of MJ they don't care about us
And I don't want to die right now
But it's always in the back of my mind
I just can't find the time
Right now
It's like I'm living in hell
I just can't love myself
But they'd rather I live like this
Then die in peace
And feel relief
Who's selfish?

Love has played you fool
Cuz everything you do
So selfish
You're
Too selfish

If we got together that would be too selfish
If we loved each other that would be so selfish