NemesisTube - Gloomy Life Lyrics

My life has been ruined from the day I was born
Coz' every step that I take has always been so wrong
Hatred deception and mockery is all I got from this selfish world
Nothing more than this I've gained from you people

From my childhood I've been so lonesome
Tired of finding a friend I feel so down
What a promise I'm making for myself!
I'm looking for someone I doubt I'll ever find

Sometimes I'm thinking I'm nothing without you
Later I ask myself who was I pointing to?
What a joke I've been on my own
I'm talking to someone I'm never with

Negative thoughts arise continously in my immature mind
May be bcoz' I've inherited my parent's disease by which I'm victimized
What a way I'm living my life!
I'm searching for the reasons to know myself

Why its always me who is stuck in these troubles?
Why tension is my only friend everytime I've the problems?
Should I blame the environment where I was grown up for all the consequences?
Or should I blame myself for the curse I seem to be infected with?
It's difficult to understand the reasons I'm struggling
So lonely and disgusting is this life I'm living