Ned Stranger - Schadenfreude Lyrics

Maybe you'll fall in love
And I will see it as a breach of trust
Because I'm scared of sharing
I'm scared of losing even as it grows
I think about the future
Like it's a dangerous garden
And I'd prick my finger on a rose

I never wanna hold, never wanna hold you hostage
I never wanna love, love in denial
I never wanna own, never wanna own your pleasure
So I'm fighting through the pain

I hope you're happy now
It's both the truth and a sarcastic vow
Cuz I heard that freedom makes you
Much less likely to escape, but oh
You run off to another
And now schadenfreude
Seems to work the other way

I never wanna hold, never wanna hold you hostage
I never wanna love, love in denial
I never wanna own, never wanna own your pleasure
So I'm fighting through the pain

And still I let my fear hold your needs to ransom
Still I feel the sting of that curse
You told me that you loved him in that warm East London garden
And schadenfreude worked in reverse

I never wanna hold, never wanna hold you hostage
I never wanna love, love in denial
I never wanna own, never wanna own your pleasure
So I'm fighting through the pain