Nealo - 0ctober Year Lyrics

I carry scars on my soul
I carry weight on my own
I carried you to my home
I carried winter alone
But all the dread that was ahead of me
Dragging me to the end of me
You were nothing but the best of friends to me

I was deep in a rut
With a feeling of nothing that seems appealing
But staring up at the sealing
Until the morning comes breathing
Under the weight of all the seasons
I felt the weight of all you leaving
I felt all emotions grand spectrum
Fall, devotion, cans, bedroom
Walls, emotion, hands met
I'm going to get up and be gone
Out of the hospital bed and I'm gone
Get my deposit I'm up and I'm on
Finally open to people from where I'm from
You don't cry you don't say nothing
You just swallow all the shit til' you can't even function
You just swallow all the tablets, codeine for the luncheon
You just bought a gaff and now the bank are on their bullshit
Miss the mortgage payments and get hit with an injunction
You just hit the bookies, then the boozer for the function
United jersey on so you can just swill pints and judge them
I know that may sound harsh but I'm not really one for judgment
You just want to fly away escape from all the

I carry scars on my soul
I carry weight on my own
I carry you to my home
I carried winter alone
But all the dread that was ahead of me
Dragging me to the end of me
You were nothing but the best of friends to me

I carry scars on my soul
I carry weight on my own
I carry you to my home
I carried winter alone
But all the dread that was ahead of me
Dragging me to the end of me
You were nothing but the best of friends to me

Sunshine on my window pane
Pain follows me all winter yeah
Maybe just walk with me
Maybe just walk with m

I carry scars on my soul
I carry weight on my own
I carry you to my home
I carried winter alone