In My Head Video (MV)

I think about dying a lot
I keep trying to stop
My stomach and mind are in knots
Like a noose around my neck
It won't loosen 'til i'm dead
This could really be the end
Break the news to all my friends
They'll pretend to give a f*ck just to get some attention
Mourn your death for like a week
Then forget in a second
And after all the ones that left us
You would think we'd learn our lesson
All i wanted was acceptance
And a mutual respect
But couldn't seem to ever get it
In exception to few that i don't even need to mention
And the rest ain't worth my breath
You won't catch me being pretentious
I'll be gone be fore you know it
Leaving when you least expect it
It should never be in question if you'd ride for me
Wouldn't even second guess it i would die for you
Look me in my eyes and lie to me
Tell me you ain't got the time for me
I ain't got no time left
Don't even say goodbye to me
The only thing that i regret is that i tried
Voices in my head tell me that i'm always wrong
Voices is in my tell me that i should be gone
Voices in my head tell me no one gives a shit
Voices in my head that you tell me don't exist
Tell me have you seen my mind? 'Cause i lost it
Around the same time that i started feeling lethargic
I couldn't tell you what caused it
All i know are the effects of it
On to the next subject
Hope you don't think less of me
Got nothing left to give
But you can have what's left of me
Which isn't much
But that's all that you can get from me
'Cause where i'm going guaranatee that i will not need it
Made a mess out of my life
And it's beyond cleaning
Got these voices in my head
And they won't stop screaming
Taking non-prescription meds
Try'na hide from demons
Looking back in retrospect
I should've got treatment
But i'm not really the type to reach out for help
Nothing no one could do for me
That i couldn't do for myself
I'm as stubborn as one can be
It reflects in my mental health
I don't want nobody see it
Emotions rolling in stealth mode
Got these voices in my head like a cell phone