Nate the Boy Scout - Exchange Lyrics

Hello hi can I take this exchange
Some of this for that and some of that for this
See I'm all bottled up and I'm finally out of luck
And I hope for peace but loose peace in hope
Tight in the throat on the words that I spoke
Everyday I do speak and the judgment around me
Got me bleak see I'm a freak
But a different kind and devoted with time
Actually just forgotten now for a few years
See it wasn't that long ago and my fears
Drive me so and I can't let go
But now it feels like a lifetime ago
Rinse and repeat everyday the same
Hermit getting weirder everyday on his own
Trading this for that and to soon to be on blat
But I'm on this beat now forever getting clean
But on these deals in wine chat
Spazmatic acrobat
Stole it for the night and I can't get it back
While most people worship and some people hate
I sit there and pray for you to find peace in all that
Understand where I'm at developing skill
I'm writing this now and I've been at the helm
Pause the record for ten months
Still bleeding this out now for seven years
DJ gone rouge so check me out
See where I'm at get my courtesy back
Lost in my ego lost in my will
I'm so hell bent sacrificing at will
Lost for peace and lost for hope and
Lost on my words now that I spoke (Spoke)
Taint in my mouth and built a fake name
See I was at the helm but not in control of the helm
I was being the puppet to claim
And I couldn't aim
What my future claim
That I was living a false name
And I felt insane
I was winning at the game
But in a way that I really didn't want to claim

Matter this is not your test
Matter this is not your test
Matter this is not your test
Matter this is not your test

You
You are
You
You are
You
You are
You
You are

My thoughts have really been popping off
Lately I see It's like writing poetry
But you put a little bit of spin in it
For real just put a little bit of you in it
Be careful though it kind of hurts when people don't like it
Even more when they try to change it
They'll rip you in all sorts of ways just to find it
And then the weaponize it
Identity crisis
Who am I
What am I doing
Am I really just a fool and
How do I live and
How do I breathe
This mental confection is ripping at me
How some people can be so mean
I really don't have a tolerance
I just get up and leave
I try to bounce with peace
But give grace to ever see
Some deep rooted problems
In deep rooted morality
And it's all an's n' if's or butts
I'm just trying to let it be
I'm in constant search for some clarity
Because I believe that this is my dream
But no agrees well kind of see
Their lacking support for the artistic ease
And a true creative thought and
Something done organically
I'm just trying to make music
That stands against the industry
Creation should be imperfect
And no formulas to be
I hate the standard
And what it says to me
That's why I push against it
With songs like these
Something beautiful
Turned into a dark twisted fantasy

Matter this is not your test (You you are)
Matter this is not your test (You you are)
Matter this is not your test (You you are)
Matter this is not your test (You you are)