Waking Up Video (MV)

And they been choppin' up the words that I've been Speakin'
But honestly there's no way that they know the meanin'
I've been making myself out to be a demon
Lately I've been dreamin' though and they don't understand
I'm finally succeeding at finding emotion and bring it out
Living in something but never been living in doubt
Figuring out
I'm better whenever I'm running my mouth
Now that you hear what they laughing about
My actual clout
The actual route I chose to take
Some friend will hate but those are fake
Don't fade away pretend to change
Like oh he's great I used to hang with Nate
And honestly I'm fine with that
I'm thankful for the help I got becoming who I am
That's where my mind is at
I can't remember finding rap
It's almost like it found me
It's almost I'm becoming the person I was always bound to be
I tried being happy with love
I tried being happy with drugs
I tried being happy with us
I tried being happy with we
I'm finally happy with me
And you can find a goal inside the place that you've been living in
Consider it
I know that you probably been bitter
Just a little bit
But you could switch it quick and do some shit different
Maybe they could see
That you could find a vacancy
Inside your heart
Inside your soul
And find a way to love them all
And find a way to put them all inside your goals
I don't know
As far as my resistance
I'm talking bout' addiction
I used to pop the pills and never listen
Always had my mama trippin'
Prayin'
Wishing I'd grow up and live my life a little different
Now I'm 28 and spittin'
Probably not what she envisioned
But she always tells me that I'm gifted
Gives me wisdom
Keeps me lifted when my spirit slippin'
And my life start gettin' twisted
Man it's sicking how my daddy dippin' did me dirty
Got me wonderin' if I am worthy
Do I deserve to be
Everything I wanna be
Got childhood memories haunting me
Wanting me to give you
And never live up to the standards I'm settin' myself
I'm upsettin' myself
My angel and demons are having conversation
About the way I question myself
The way I pressure myself
They say I need to put my stress on a shelf
But I can't do it
I see the path I need to take
But I can't chose it
I want improvement
I've been through it
I've been through it
I've been through it
I've been through it
I keep fighting with myself
It's only me that I am hurting
My mental health it isn't perfect
In fact it's quite concerning
We've been learning from these verse
But we haven't scratched the surface
Together we could probably find our purpose
Is is worth it let me know
Are you nervous
Let go
Is is worth it let me know
Are you nervous
Let go
Are you nervous
Let go
Are you nervous
Let go
Are you nervous
Let go
Are you nervous
Let go