Natan - inside out (self hate) Lyrics

Take the bandage off we sing sana sana with the group
Prayers from momma keep me shining like the sun
Needing more so I ring god, the number don't go through
Please open heaven's gate, we begging you my dude
Weeping loud as f*ck, but hear gospel through
Salt erodes the wooden tombs, we biding with a tool
He blue, wish we didn't leave it open, I didn't want a clue
Now I found it, he just me, I broke the mirror in my room
Don't need reminders, but it's constantly in view
Flashes of his kindness, know the good ones gone to soon
Image stuck, no royalties for us, it's a Getty you a fool
White folks making murals from the pain and now it's cool
At a museum off 2nd Street and Grand Avenue
Call us peons but know we can poison up your food
Actually we do you like Nardwuar (doo doo doo doo)
See your future veggies tales, the story coma (too-too-toose)
They got boo boos, that don't heal, no staples or glue
Gon' patch you up, unfinished game of operation strewn
Pieces but their organs, I'd like to play a little tune
Guess it's more like Westside, I guess I'll pray for you too

Please let my enemies all burn eternally
Judgment day got you begging on hands and knees
Ain't no cover charge I'll let you in for free
And your friends too, promise is earnestly
Ways more than strays, need guidance, I'm orderly
Got a thesis, real nigga psychology
First lesson stand on your two feet
Got an F and you ain't even learn a thing

All the thoughts controlling getting harder to sleep
Tossing really turning, nightmares only no dreams
Devil on my shoulder whisper devious things
Looked into abyss and that shit looked into me
Maybe therapy ain't working 'cause I'm so charged up hunnid
Energizer with the bunny drum, when I knock they ducking
Dodgeball tactics but this shit ain't fun, why do I stay laughing
Head stay on a swivel got a hunch, that they up to something
Actually I know I keep it hushed, got a belt like batman
Swear more vigilante than a thug, enemies so constant
Suicide, depression to the drugs, mental got us numbing
Shifting them from concepts into forms, Remble I can touch 'em
Tired of these raps why you so smug, yelling change the subject
I've been into magic as of late, pulled out heads from buckets
Cutting up their skin and even tongues, moving like I'm Hopkins
Guess I didn't listen to you punks, do what I be wanting

Now all I need to do is break the cycle of noose
Make sure fam is good and I ain't got nothing to prove
Acting way too hard but they got something to lose
Try to move with caution but sometimes lose my cool
Lived with fam in lockdown and it shifted my views
Now I know why I act the way that I do
Sister talk to me like she speed reading a book
Moms and pops facetime, they be geeking, its love
If they good, I'm good, but first verse loom above
Biggest enemy, the mirror and he ain't got a glove
Scarier than thriller inside out was no fun
'Cause my characters were only the negatives ones
Thought I need lobotomy to reset, a scrub
Dig a little deeper moving past all the flaws
Now I touched some grass and got in tune with the one
I be morphing, no rangers, all into the sun