The Nerve Agents - Metal Pig Lyrics

When will I know that it is gone?
Life sucked away...
Is is when the wheels go whizzing off like spinning tops
Violently whirling
Violently turning 'til they drop?
I've spent the days unsure
But should I spend them
Prepping for long goodbyes
And teary eyes or flip the coin and revitalize?
Have patience until November...
So I'm told I need answers!
I'm trusting who?
Metal Pig