Mythos Recovery - I Was Abused Lyrics

Spence
It's your dad
I'm worried about you
Um, you've been so angry lately, and I see you're burning a lot of bridges
And you're distant... you're distant from me, from your family, from God
Y'know, it's... what we all need right now is to be together
As a family. Like we used to... we used to be happy, right?
Everything was going fine before y-... well... lots of people don't know how to forgive
I guess you know something about that
Look
I forgive you, Spencer
And God has forgiven me
We're waiting for you
Please come back home

You do your talk of how you're forgiven
How your sins are in the past
You tell me not to make you relive it
Like my trauma doesn't last
And Jesus rose again after dying
Little ones to him belong
Suff'ring children punished for crying
They are weak and he is strong

But I was abused
You abused me
I was abused
By you

We walked around wearing smiling faces
Yours was always full of pride
For all your children walked in God's graces
When you had so much to hide
But just as soon as we were alone
Out of the public eye
You'd tell me nobody else should know
I would cry and cry and cry

'Cause I was abused
You abused me
I was abused
By you
I was abused
I was abused
I was abused
I was abused
I was abused
I was abused

And in the end you tell me you love me
That you're proud to be my dad
Even while you shout and shove me
Like it's really not that bad
And would you care if I die tomorrow?
If I took too many pills?
Or would you take advantage of sorrow
And brag how you forgive me still?

But the one thing you won't mention
And probably never will
Or give any attention
Is how you made me feel

When I was abused
When you abused me
I was abused
By you
I was abused
I was abused
I was abused
I was abused
I was abused
I was abused
I was abused
I was abused
I was abused
I was abused
I was abused
I was abused
I was abused
I was abused
I was abused
I was abused
I was abused
I was abused
I was abused
I was abused
I was abused
I was abused
I was abused
I was abused

I was abused
I was abused
I was abused
I was abused
I was abused
I was abused
I was abused
I was abused
I was abused

I'm sorry
I said I'm sorry
Quit punishing me over and over and over again
I get it
What do you want me to say?
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
What else do you want me to do?
Spencer?
Spencer!

Hey man, uh, are you okay?
What?
Are you alright?
Yeah I'm fine
Yeah, I'm good
I'm good