MXXN - Who Am I? Lyrics

And I don't know why the harder I try
I'm dropping more deeper like so many times
I'm scared to be old and scared for my soul to go
I dont want to go, I don't want to lie
Feeling pretty low, kinda pretty tight
Wonder who I am, am I doing right?
Why can't I go higher ?
Why can't I deny?
Why can't I go buy what I want to try?
Ask me how I'll die, prolly on a fire
Happy on the day, afraid on the night
Can I finally pray? Can I finally die?
I know who you are, tell me who I am
Got so many scars, got so many plans
I don't start the fire, fire got me cold
No time to be old, I'm a minuteman
I'm a bogeyman, am I even real?
Do I have to deal with the king of hell?
Don't know what to do, don't know what think
Am I helping you? Am I gonna sink?
And I don't know why the harder I try
I'm dropping more deeper like so many times
I'm scared to be old and scared for my soul to go
Don't know what I seek
Every challenge I break got me on my knees
Why now I feel like I can no longer breathe?
No I can't men no I cannot feel a thing
Look what these angels have put on my beliefs
Every night I spend got me feel like a beast
Can no longer sleep without losing my teeth
Can no longer sleep without making those dreams
Can no longer wonder
I know who you are, tell me who I am
Got so many scars, got so many plans
I don't start the fire, fire got me cold
No time to be old, I'm a minuteman
I'm a bogeyman, am I even real?
Do I have to deal with the king of hell?
Don't know what to do, don't know what think
Am I helping you? Am I gonna sink?
And I don't know why the harder I try
I'm dropping more deeper like so many times
I'm scared to be old and scared for my soul to go
To go