A Thousand Times Video (MV)

I tried to forgive myself
A thousand times
I cried cuz I forbade myself
From the divine
Now I know what it's like to lose
Love
For the first time
Slowly
I need more signs
I need more signs
To indicate that I'ma be okay
That's why I'm having you stay away
I spend all my nights awake
Just thinkin' 'bout my life for Heaven's sake
Wondered what I've come to
This life without you
Don't know what I've come to
This life without you
Uh
I never thought I'd find love when I was seventeen
Was runnin' through my life like a movie scene
I was her Mac but she be my Ariana
That shit runs deeper than the Mariana
Trench
Say my stomach wrenches
Thinkin' about all this tension
Not to mention
Trying to forget like dementia
Trying to forget the connection
Make a correction
Stand there look at my reflection
Wonder how we were so reckless
Try to fact check this
What we had was more than a checklist
What we had was early mornings going for breakfast
Never mattered what time it was
Time to be together
For once thinkin' love was forever
But now that shit's gone with the force of a feather two
Birds of a feather
Toughened like leather
Inseparable 'til the end came near
Lovin' someone new yet I still lay here
Hopin' that you're holding up okay
On this summer morning while I'm sipping the O.J.
Yeah I'll be okay