Mr.Nonchalant - Shower Thoughts Lyrics

I scribble scrabble every rhyme
In my notebook one at a time
Wondering if I would be fine
If my tracks blew up and shined
A big ass light upon my mental
How this would all be simple
Just to get outside of my own head going through what I live through
You'd think I was a stoner
All the stress that I be holding
Inside my chest feelings soon gonna be exploding
But ain't no fireworks tonight baby Just caskets closing
Being buried under moonlight yeah shit gets exposure
I backtrack on mental thoughts
Like MJ when he moonwalks
Either get with it or kick rocks
Get a better compass or get lost
Negative in my way
Like black forces on rainy days nigga
Even my positive thoughts contain a shade of gray
But on this dark shit I'm shining
Sparkle like a diamond
Better listen this is more than just another nigga rhyming
Sick of being misconstrued
Confused with other dudes
Who couldn't walk a step let alone a mile up in my shoes
Nobody does what I do's
Bitch I've paid my f*cking dues
I'll have you like a blood in crips court seeing the f*cking blues
This shit is all off the Richter
Shooting from the hipper
If I actually aim at you, you gon be wishing that I missed ya
Never let niggas play me
But I'll let the chick rape me
If they want the Dick who am I to not give em what they craving
Got me on demon time
Feeding line after line
Saying what comes to mind
And I won't apologize
This ain't for nobody intended
Sugar coating? No not a bit
You feel I'm coming at you then it's me you have offended
Trying to tell me to never push send
Unless you saying what you meant
But if you hearing this that means that it's already been sent
Still Nonchalant even when faded
More bars than f*ckin Vegas
Mirror telling me I'm crazy
In reality I'm jaded
Left with memories from a past
Life I thought I had
While you got the nerve to think I don't have the right to be mad
Shit got me pissed off and agged
Wanting to load my mags
If I could get you without repercussion bitch you would be had
One of the realest on this planet
On business I be standing
You probably don't like me cause how it is is how I tell it
These shower thoughts I endure
More shots than a liquor store
On the day to day this is it nothing less nothing more
Father forgive me, I'm sinning
I'm just trying to be winning
Striking on the iron while it's hot till I see a million
(I) need vacation like Jeezy
(To) sit on billions like Jay-Z
Tryna be the next A$AP in search of a new Rhi Rhi
Aspirations is big high like lighter flicks from Weezy
And when I reach the top I might be dancing like Cbreezy
But I'm so tired of being tired
No time for wasting time
Fine ain't good enough nothings fine
I'm just out to get mine