I'm just vibing
I just want to say. Thank You Atmosphere
And the whole Rhymesayers Entertainment
For the inspiration to make this track
Lets Get it
Now how do I say this
Relax my minds patience
Spitting bars has fixed me more than some calming fragrance
On one shoulder angels whisper in my ear
Telling me about the dreams and the things I want to hear
On the other rests the devil
Digging deeper with his shovel
Constantly reminding me of insecurities and failures
Who do I trust in a world full of delusionist
My mindset is sadly never nothing new to this
I try to keep it on a positive note, keep my boat afloat
The murky waters I move through, but my paddles broke
And I don't have the faith to hope
Or the time to wait for a donut and rope
If I could swim through the waves maybe get back to my headspace
Put all my feelings on display what more can I say
I Y K Y K and if you don't then I D K what to say
Over your head but not out the way
I'm used to keeping my mouth closed always the quiet one
Till provoked then they see I got a gun for a tongue
I'm Putting this out maybe my son and daughter hear it
And realize Daddies always been a trapped free spirit
Heads still full of pressure from senses that I'm clutching
No amount of meds could rid me of the symptoms got me bugging
Angels still whispering and devil still shoveling
Can't escape neither I'm just a human filled with love and sin
It's like I know what to say
But I just don't know how to say it
But I gotta say it
Yeah
My psyche swinging back and forth like my last name was pendulum
Can't remember the last pic I took without forcing the grin
Yeah you understand the sentences
But you don't understand the sentiment
Unless you living what I'm in
Wake up in the mornings put on the happy mask
Conversate with random workers, I finish every task
I just divorced my best frienemy
You'd think I wanna talk to someone about my feelings within me
But that's about as right as women taking accountability
And we know how that goes so don't expect that energy
I just keep on moving you call me soul 2 soul
Might as well leave my stuff packed cause I'll be home to home
And it ain't no way that I can keep it off of display
I'm trying to smile but all you see is a bittersweet face
And that's the truth, I'm just validating my own proof
This is how it goes when you're the only one who knows you