Mpth - #Depression Lyrics

Yeah
I gotta vent
Look
I know you may not understand so here let me help you
Look

I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired uninspired
Smiling at liars preaching to the choir
Screamin' out for help but no cares
Tryna figure out a plan like I'm playin' musical chairs
Having two lives a wife who couldn't love me for another night
Left me in spite and said I didn't treat her right
Bein' victimized by people who play the victim
My phone my tablet and my social media addiction
I'm resisting suicide but it's the only thing callin' out to me in my time of need
My friends don't wanna deal with my depression say I left a bad impression
Guess I'll just lay in bed and wait for death to set in
I'm tired of the fake my whole existence was a mistake
I wanna take a pill to make it go away but then I shake
So I'll just sit here quietly with thoughts inside my head wishin' I was dead

I said I'm tired
And I know that there's some people who can relate seems like fate
Keeps takin' them to God past the golden gates
Suicide is happenin' more often or maybe it's the media didn't count the coffins

I'm livin' in the land of the free yet it seems
I feel the need to pay a fee every time I breathe
But I'm thankful for the trees and the flowers and the breeze
And the water in the ocean comes back when it leaves
I'm missin' all my friends I used to have before I lost myself
Before I killed myself and lived to tell the story to myself
Feelin' sorry for myself me me me
I'm also tired of feeling' sorry for my need in my time of need
I used to smoke weed and I remembered how to smile
But my anxiety only allowed the substance for a while
I keep goin' over plans in my head and on a piece of paper
F*ck it I'll just do it later
And there's a lot of people rootin' for me but they never say it
And I got this game of life but I don't really wanna play it
I'm strong enough to know when I'm weak when to speak
And how to seek out answers but right now I'll just go back to sleep

I'm tired
I said I'm tired
Look look

How do I succeed when everyone's expecting me to fail?
How do I go anywhere if I don't have the strength to spread my sail?
I checked the mail and all I got were bills
And all I wanna take are pills to make the ills in my brain go away
The story of my life is sad and everybody thinks I'm bad
But I'm just mad because I'm actin' like my dad
The therapist said that she couldn't help me
And my mama said I gotta do it by myself
But I see everybody else
They have friends and picture albums on their shelf

But me
I'm just tired