In Hindsight (I Lost) Video (MV)

I never got to pop pills
Chose shit that makes me evolve
Don't lose it
In hindsight I lost
In hindsight I lost
High school feels so far back
It ain't real
Killing myself to feel what you feel
While you go and pop pills
It's never enough
I'll f*cking die on that hill
I didn't understand how you felt
I don't think I ever will
It was a testing of my will
And I failed
Guess it's time to re-up
Have some fake fun
With some fake friends
Now your happy
And I'm wasted
If I'm not drunk
You can count I'm intoxicated
I don't blame you for all this
I blame my bad habits
They're so interactive
They molded my mind
For this rap shit
Now back to the sadness
He doesn't care that I exist
I want A taste of those lips
I want to caress his hips
I want to feel his breath down on neck
That's something ill never come to forget
I never got to pop pills
Chose shit that makes me evolve
Don't lose it
In hindsight I lost
In hindsight I lost
I always got to smoke herb
Choose shit that make me devolve
Don't lose it
In hindsight I lost
In hindsight I lost
Cigarette smoke drifting high
I don't really wanna fight
But you call
I don't mind
Pick the line
Start to talking bout your life
Only thing I could pick up
Was your crying
And you start to tell me
"Omg it's way worse than yours"
As I'm lying on the grass
Or the floor
Why did you come by
To beat the dead horse
I feel forced outta my own home
By a face I don't see no more
I wonder if he still thinks about me
When he's drowsy
When he's working at his full time job
Looking busy
Sad to say it out loud
But it's true
I still sit and think about you
I think about you when I'm in my bed
I think about you on my walk to work
I think about you so much in my head
I think about you and it start to hurt
I think about you when I wake up
I think about you when I go to sleep
Why is it so hard to get stronger
'Cause you were the one who made me weak
I always got to smoke herb
Choose shit that make me devolve
Don't lose it
In hindsight I lost
In hindsight I lost