Can't settle on anything, subdued and lethargic, don't feel up for the fight
Pretty much dont recognise who I am, I know what the old me would do but it i know it Won't feel right
But then this don't feel right either, I feel a kinda numb paralysis
Not pain, not anger, no fear, no lust, just shame
Intimacy a warm but distant recollection but no longer missed
It can change, it has before, I can still be the person that I was before
Tell me you love me, hold my hand, touch me,
Close the door and
Breathe, breathe, just breathe, just numb
Don't feel like going out, but these walls are pressing me in, I swear the ceilings caving in
The air is thick, I can feel my heart beating, eyelids heavy, sweat clings to my skin
Cant recall am I supposed to be somewhere, I worry I'm letting people down
I don't care and I don't care that I don't care and that's the paradox I've found
It can change, it has before, I can still be the person I was before
Tell me you love me, hold my hand, touch me, close the door
Breathe, breathe, just breathe, just numb
You reach out, justight brush
An ember catches, the pilot light comes on
It's different, concrete, a purpose,
I can see a little further, the hint of a reason.
Then you turn and the atmosphere is
Disturbed, the air snuffs the thought and it's
Gone
It can change, it has before, I can still be the person I was before
Tell me you love me, hold my hand, touch me, close the door
Breathe, breathe, just breathe, just numb