Mother's Mistakes - Very Far from Me Lyrics

I wish that I could say I've missed you since you've gone
But I still haven't recovered completely
I'm glad I lost you in the darkness before dawn
I can't believe you thought you'd defeat me

I think that I have grown since you went away
I think these wounds just might heal after all
Does it make you mad to think that I'll be okay
Does it make you laugh when I fall

And if I take a step away from a safe place
I expect to see you there
And if I falter just a little bit from grace
That's all it takes to bring you there

You cannot hurt me anymore

I know now that you belong very far from me
I realize that I have no use
For a twisted, worthless, diseased carcass like you
Trying to hand-feed me abuse

Sometimes I sit and think, and wonder if
What if maybe you were still around
And if I let down my guard and you came back
Would you try to put me underground

It's always me I hurt each time I attack
No matter where I aim
But I must react to the knives you placed in my back
Unlike you, I feel pain

And if I reach for you in a moment of weakness
I expect to see your smile
And when you say to me together we can beat this
My throat will fill with bile

But against me, old friend, you are not defeatless
And I will never give in
Though I know that only death can complete this
I only play to win

You cannot hurt me anymore
You are not worth me anymore