Moodkill - Killing the Monkeys Lyrics

I love to do it but I hate coming down
Can't live without it doesn't mean that I'm proud
Why do I do it wonder what's wrong with me
When I gotta have one I don't wanna be seen
So many monkeys don't which one will show
I lost control so long ago I'm losing my soul
Damn near the bottom well I cannot be saved
Don't think I want to let me dig my own grave

There is nothing you can do it's all in my head
I've got to kill these monkeys before I end up dead
They beat me down and I get up pushed further off track
Someone get these f*ckin' monkeys off of my back

I hit a new low I can't take anymore
'Cause every f*ckin' day a monkey knocks on my door
So many monkeys wonder which one I'll need
Thank God I've got one that makes sure that I fall asleep
One brings me bad luck yeah one gets me high
Another blurs my vision that's okay I can drive
One makes me filthy and one keeps me awake
They all feed off each other they won't give me a break

There is nothing I can do it's all in my head
I've got to kill these monkeys before I end up dead
I am far outnumbered and I'm under attack
Someone get these f*ckin' monkeys off of my back

Gone off to find God and forget where I've been
Beg for forgiveness and lose sight of my sins
Safe on the inside well I'm doing just fine
Twelve steps to stand on live one day at a time
Walk straight and narrow well there's no turning back
The monkeys are all waiting won't you cut me some slack
Bad habits die hard they make off with my end
Fell off the wagon yeah I f*cked up again

There is nothing left to do it's all in my head
I've got to kill these monkeys before I end up dead
They're everywhere I go no matter where I am at
Someone get these f*ckin' monkeys off of my back