MixedByBlitz - Afraid Lyrics

As far back as I can remember I haven't been sober
Bottling up this pain I never get that closure
Busting my ass for what so we can get exposure
But you never seem it and it's gets worse as I get older
Whym I feeling like a soldier put my neck on the line
I might smile to your face but trust I'm not feeling fine
Lately suicidal thoughts have continue to eat me alive
But I say that everything is great just so that I won't have to waste your time

I'm so afraid
I'm so afraid
I'm so afraid (I'm so afraid I'm so afraid)
I'm so afraid (I'm so afraid I'm so afraid I'm so afraid I'm so afraid yeah)

I'm so afraid to feel anything
I'm more afraid to feel everything
I'm afraid to feel lost
Happiness at what cost
When I'm feeling down and out don't nobody wanna talk

Is this the end or do I gotta repent
For the sins that I've been having ever since I was a kid
It's really hard for me to believe that god exist
When you've traveled down a road that everybody will miss
Take a trip into the mind of what a genius is
I bleed the pen they don't even really believe me a bit
I'm sick of it that's why this album I put my soul on the line
I might smile to your face but trust I'm never feeling fine

I'm so afraid
I'm so afraid
I'm so afraid (I'm so afraid I'm so afraid)
I'm so afraid (I'm so afraid I'm so afraid I'm so afraid I'm so afraid yeah)

I'm so afraid to feel anything
I'm more afraid to feel everything
I'm afraid to feel lost
Happiness at what cost
When I'm feeling down and out don't nobody wanna talk