Milo - Pillow Talk Lyrics

Sometimes I lay in my bed
Repeating the things that I could've said
Hard to admit, but I think about it
More than I should and I can't seem to quit
Think about violence think about me
And the criteria I never meet
Can't comprehend all the voices I hear
Feeling like crying, but can't feel no tears
Say that it's trauma maybe it's stress
Maybe I need to sleep better to test
But what if I tell you I'm trying my best
Closing my eyes relaxing no rest
Think about violence think about sex
And why do I hate it so much in my head
Feeling abnormal not even formal
Maybe not liking it makes me immortal

More than I bargained I'm already farther the rabbit hole
Back where I started I'm getting outsmarted
My brain is the culprit and also the target
I tell myself I should be sleeping
I know that I need it
I try to relax and control my own breathing
I feel that I keep on repeating
The same kind of lies and the reasoning
Trying to ease it in just keep on breathing in
I'm on the border of mental disorder
I can't really sleep and I'm dying of boredom

Just little pillow talk
Why would you care at all
About my pillow talk in my head
Just little pillow talk
Why would I care at all
When the pillow talks to my head

No I never relax
The thoughts in my mind are moving too fast
I'm already past my bedtime alas
Stuck in the past I think about that
What if everybody you love would die
Would you be crying out of your mind
Or would you be trying to catch up the dying
Living in lie until your goodbyes
Sorting financial troubles you might have
Suffer in silence why would you do that
Can't even lie
I think you deserve all the pain and the suffering you ever felt back then

Why would you try if you never achieve it
Did it before and you never succeeded
Chasing that high again trying to feel it
Running away from me never revealing

Living with this pain every day when I feel the same
Then I pull away from my bed and I levitate
This is fake what I'm gonna say, but then I fly away
Nobody on my way am I gonna be late
Well anyway
This ain't no race, but I still finish first place
And I fall on my face and I follow the trace
To break the pace
Late rest brake check braindead
Lately I haven't been facing
I'm patiently waiting my time to get phasing
Through all of the spacing between my own thoughts
And the crazy amazing plots of the stories I got
But they don't stop the clock
And I don't like it no more
Just let me write it down and then call
It a day and let me fall

Just little pillow talk
Why would you care at all
About my pillow talk in my head
Just little pillow talk
Why would I care at all
When the pillow talks to my head
Just little pillow talk
Why would you care at all
About my pillow talk in my head
Just little pillow talk
Why would I care at all
When the pillow talks to my head