I gave a girl everything I had to give
Money I didn't have. time i couldn't waste
When she lost her peace, I went out, found it, and dragged it back to her
I showed her another side of the world without ever leaving the city
She told me that I was so kind, and so sensitive
That we would fall in love
But after a few months, we had a falling out
I decided it was best that we didn't talk anymore
In response to this, she told me that I was possessive
That I fall in love too easily; that i'm too sensitive
And now I know what it means when they say
That people will hate the very qualities they loved about you
And it will leave you unsure of yourself
You will wonder what changed, was it them or was it me?
You will question the value of I love you's after seeing how conditional love can be
Your first instinct will be to blame yourself
Because your love for this person will not want to allow you to blame them
It's rare that people will admit to hurting you
Instead, They will frame you as being wrong
Convincing themselves that you are toxic in order to alleviate their own guilt
And if you have been kind them, having little to pull from
They will have no option but to turn your better qualities against you
Your passion will be newly regarded as overwhelming
Your concern will be possessiveness
Your kindness will be naivety and your love will be "too much"
But in regard to emotion, there is no such thing as too much
You cannot love too much, you can only love the wrong person
The more in tune you are with your emotions is the more human you will be
We weren't given feelings to hide them away and numb ourselves
We were made to feel. It's how we interact with everything around us
It's how we remind ourselves we're alive
So I resent the idea of being too sensitive
Because in a world continually growing colder, people will try to rob you of your warmth
But we need vulnerability
We need people who embrace their own feelings and recognize the weight of them
So we can begin to see validity in the feelings of others
I resent the idea that I need to change, to harden myself in order to survive in this world
Maybe the world is what needs changing
We try to convince ourselves that our minds set precedence over the things we feel
As if we can turn off our emotions function off logic alone - we always lose
Because we are not machines, we are human beings
And what sets us apart from an assortment of codes and numbers
Is our ability to find balance between logic and intuition
So I will not change
I will be too sensitive
And because you can't find it within yourself to appreciate me
Doesn't mean I've lost my worth