Mikey Lax. - Face Lyrics

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Hey, it's uh... it's me

I don't think my brain is cut out for this rap shit (I)
I sold my soul to try to bring about a map, shit (Why)
Why can't I get some sleep, I feel like it could help me (Find)
Find a secret passage out to Hogwarts (Mischief managed)
I took my helping and I gave it away
I grabbed a second helping at the end of the day
Now I'm runnin up for thirds before some f*ckers get their first
My head is turnin every time somebody whispers my name
I had a dream that I's with flower boy and we was pushing daisies
Saw my father in the flesh, first time since I was 8
A bunch of baby bees brought me to the place and to the date
They told mikey that his dad would start to fade all away
I used to dream of dinosaurs, till they ate off my face
I had a journal of comics I wrote, they took it away
We never had cable, so all that I could watch was Arthur
And the theme song always told me: it's a wonderful day, shit

You ever get like that? Like just so f*ckin sad that, like
You're just numb to everything after a certain point

They say I talk about my father to much, the f*ck you mean?
That shit's been hauntin every day of my life since I's a teen
I wrote a whole f*ckin song to my mom and now they
Acting like traumatic events just ain't what they seem
Sometimes I feel like I can soar through the ceiling
Like I can see a person's heart when it's beating, I took a hard bunch of beatings
Just to get to my meetings, and to get to my classes
I need to sort out my feelings, and to get over Daphne
I take prescriptions, but ain't took em for a couple a years
I told my doctor I ain't missed a single day through my tears
She said that I'll be off em soon, and it ain't safe to do it quickly
I know I'm gonna "save the money" just to spend it on beer, shit

I mean I think that's the scariest part, y'know?
The trauma of the situations I kept getting into they
They didn't even phase me anymore. It was just so like

My head been spinnin and spinnin, like whippin the Honda at Ty Warner park
I got a feelin that I'm not the apple, but everyone says that I didn't fall far
My grandma's bipolar, my grandpa was senile
My dad was depressed, so I know where to start
I'm suicidal, an addict, controlling, in constant fear I'll be the cause of the harm
I'm not the wind in the trees, I am the chips on the ground, not the life of the party
But I'm the first person to leave, I got an X on my chest for the weapons to cleave
I get off Twitter so I can look into the mirror at cuts that I make
Just to watch how they bleed
All they can say is that I am "unique." I don't know, what the f*ck that means
I get thoughts I can't express cause I don't want to scare nobody
Share the f*ckin lot of em, but this'll cross the line
Sometimes I see the body of the person that I killed
Back in 2014, but we share the same face

And like, from the outside, I don't think anybody could tell how f*ckin crazy I was
If anything, I came off as kinda monotonous
But I was thinking these delusional, suicidal thoughts

I been lookin to the future tryna fix the past
I gotta get my shit together and I gotta do it fast
I been running on some fumes, and I don't know where I'm at
There ain't another f*ckin exit for a mile and a half
And I been running, running inside of it, there is no sight of it
Ain't got the time to quit, no f*ckin time to quit, I'm buried in compliments
Ain't got no confidence, I know that I'm full of shit, why don't they see it yet
Don't got a secret kid, but they gotta see me sweat
That's not my ethic it is a plea for death
It is a plea for death, plea for death, plea f