Midcard - Sick Lyrics

I don't know if I'd still be here
If you weren't around back when
I had much lower understanding
Of all the anger I'd let seep in
Hang me up inside your doorway
And I guess that's just your call
I'll just say I love you more now
That it feels like I don't know you at all
Keep on thinking about dying
In a smaller sort of fashion
Keep on counting down the minutes
Hope someone's there when nothing happens
You'll feel safer when you're braver
You'll feel younger when you're not
I wanna say I hate you sometimes
When it feels like I got got
Here's me telling people tough shit
During times of weakness
It's my weird way of asking
If you really mean it
I'm waiting it out
Like the big man I am
There's probably better ways of asking
But I don't know if I can
Because I don't think you mean it
Don't be stupid
I won't go where I'm not wanted
Don't be stupid
I won't go where I'm not wanted
I spent too many years pasting my guilt
On everybody else
So here's one more for old time's sake
Knock some back and ring the bell
Write me a song motherf*cker
Come and hit me all you got
I wanna get nervous at the first note
I wanna be proud of all the heat you brought
Here's me saying"I love you"
Like I'm drunk at your wedding
It's a weird way of finding out
All I've been forgetting
I'm waiting it out
Like the big man I am
There's probably better ways of asking
But I don't know if I can
I don't know if I can
Because I don't think we mean it
And I'm such a big, big man
Don't be stupid
I won't go where I'm not wanted
Don't be stupid
I won't go where I'm not wanted