Birthday Party Video (MV)

Hold it back until November
It orbits my body
Until I see it and remember
Where my heroes fell
Tried my hand at pretending
At that first birthday party
Mom wanted to feel normal
But I felt like hell
Now that place is long gone
With those pictures from prom
We bury the truth
Where the truth don't belong
Oh my god what a sight
It gets all brought to light
But the daylight don't last all that long

Hold my breath when they pass by
Hope no one can see me
Taking good men at their word
Has gotten me nowhere
Humming hymns from my past life
The ink starts to bleed
Angels sing like a gunshot
Let earth be stripped bare
I am angry, not sad
And I miss my damn dad
Somebody owes me the old life that I had
Oh my god, what a sight
I won't be home tonight
I don't know when I'll be coming back

I'm putting my drink down and walking outside
There's a void in the sky of immeasurable size
I'm more bitter and angrier than I had realized
Let me find myself under its eye