Micki XO - Why Did I Stay? Lyrics

Another punch
Another broken bottle
Another pint of stout
To drown your sorrows
Say I push you to the edge
Make you go full throttle
Scream and hit me
Because you feel hollow
How has it taken me
So long
To figure out something
Was so wrong?
I blame myself
I blame the drinking
For every time you made me sob
And now I'm thinking
Why do I stay?
Why do I fight?
When the situation
Is eating me alive
My hand on the doorknob
But I can't move
Can't count how many times
I've asked you to prove
That this time will be different
That this time you'll be persistent
At making things right
Always flash those pearly whites
As we go from
Darkness to sunshine
But the storm clouds hover
And as long as you're my lover
I'll never be free
Scared to just be me
Why do I stay?
Why do I fight?
When the situation
Is eating me alive
Consuming my soul
My confidence
Make me question my existence
When the truth is
Your toxic lies
Will be my demise
Why did I stay?
And babe, I know no one is perfect
And the bruises always fade
But even after all you've done
It still hurts to walk away
(Why did I stay?)
Why did I stay?
Why did I fight?
When the situation
Is eating me alive
Consuming my soul
My confidence
Make me question my existence
When the truth is
Your toxic lies
Were our demise
Oh God
Why did I
Why did I
Why did I
Why did I stay?