mgscorin - my first/last prom Lyrics

Standing outside in the rain
It's pouring down tears from my eyes
I'm still alive, hanging by a thread
But how am I supposed to survive?
When you've lost all of my trust
What am I supposed to do?
My heart crumbles to stardust
Just when I thought I had nothing else to lose
With my back against the wall,
With no one else to call
I will never fall in love again, never fall in love again
(Everything that, everything that, everything that glimmers ain't gold)
(Everything that, everything that, everything that glimmers ain't-)
I still remember my first prom so vividly
I got a call from Jaden my brother, said "are you listening?"
He said he got a date for me, I'm like "bro, are you kiddin' me?"
He said "nah", I'm tryna stay calm, the rest is history
I never had the best looks, I thought I'd never go to prom,
But Jaden got my back, he give the papers I'm supposed to sign
He told me text her phone, I'm thinkin' "mm, she prolly won't respond"
"It's two weeks 'fore the dance, I'll text her later", he said "bro, come on"
So I say "fine", I text her "hi, my name MG",
She say "hey it's nice to meet you, by the way my name Marie"
Said she live near Bolden Park, she go to school right down the street,
Said she know I stay at Lewis Hill, and later we could meet,
Get to know each other, tell her "cool" and then I tell my brother
In that moment I could feel the love we had for one another
Hit the shower even though the warm water wasn't workin' it's ice cold,
But it was aight tho
Then I go to put on my cologne and my nice clothes,
Jaden looked and laughed he told me, "bro, did you get dressed wit' a blindfold?"
"Witcha eyes closed?", ha
That's when my phone had buzzed, I knew Marie would text my line
She said she busy doing-mmm this happens every time
She said that school comes first and told me I was next in line,
And then she told me she still need to get a dress for prom
So I tell Jaden, I'm like, "bro what should I say"
I text Marie like "what color" she said "pink or blueish gray"
I give her options she said "that one", then the smile wiped off my face
I told Jaden it's 400 and that's quite a lot to pay
He said he seen it in the thrift for way cheaper
He told me "bro I got you" I say "that's why you my peoples",
But somethin' wasn't really sittin' right wit' me,
He never was the type to be nice to me, now he actin' tight wit' me?
I let it go
Fast forward two weeks later,
The dance tonight I need to be patient, my knees shakin', I need Jaden
I told him "bro I need a ride", he looked at me and told me that the Honda back from the shop, now here's the keys, take it
My nerves racin' as I hop in the car,
I take a deep breath,
I bought her a dress,
I got her address,
I'm on the way there,
I knock on the door,
I stare at the floor,
Man I been waitin' on this moment for years
She unlock the lock then open up the door wit' a "hi"
She a high 5'4" with the gorgeousest eyes
She ask for hug and of course I oblige,
Step off her porch while not knowin' it was soon to be a horrible night
The ride smoove, shorty eyein' me I seen in my peripheral,
We pull up to the school, I hand the papers to the principal, uh
He told me "sorry, these papers are illegitimate",
I'm like "what? That's impossible sir, my brother printed it",
He told me "sorry, but you're not comin' in",
That's when Marie pulled out a paper that her pocket had in it,
She hand in the paper, the principal said "this one look great and where is the man that you are takin?"
She look at me while smirkin' tryna keep a straight face and she tell 'em "he's inside, and his name is Jaden"
Damn
Damn
(Why this always gotta happen to me man)
(Whatever glimmers ain't gold man, I'll tell ya)
Look,
Jaden walk out wit' his friends and they all laughin',
They tuxes is all blacker than mine,
I felt cool but I lost that like a failed rebound
Marie had went inside and now she nowhere to be found
Jaden walk up and say "I mean for you to be clowned",
While tryin' not to laugh, man he don't mean a thing he sayin'
I vowed for that to be the last time I talk to Jaden
I should've known this was a plan for my humiliation
I should've known he lied, he smile was very prominent,
And when he smiles hard, it's usually cause a lie had prompted it,
And plus he barely keeps his word and never keeps his promises
That's why he stay the one I always got a problem wit',
Man what kinda prom is this?
Standin' in the black tux I spent my whole savings on,
Soakin' in the pourin' rain, I knew I should've stayed at home
I knew that it was too good to be true to bring a date along,
But now I'm past that, I'm visualizin' life with Jaden gone
'Cause we was 'posed to family, that ain't what brothers do
I wonder if he'd pull the same on another dude,
Or if he did it to me 'cause I'm just a sucker who would fall for it, guess he was all for it to cut me loose
And then Marie, the first girl I thought I ever messed wit',
You bested me wit' your extra effort to send the message
That our attraction was mutual, I fell in the trap,
Lookin' back, too good to be true that you would like me back
I go home sit down crack a soda can,
Then slammed it right on the table, I almost broke my hand
It felt like I had gotten slapped wit' a open hand
I'm still a stranger to winnin' although I know I can
I'm still a stranger to winnin' although I know I can
I gotta go to school tomorrow as a broken man
The next day, I see Marie and Jaden holdin' hands,
My first prom, best believe I'll never go again
(Best believe I'll never go again, best believe I'll never go again)
(Best believe I'll never go again, best believe I'll never go a-)
No, no, no, one knows
No one knows,
Just what I feel
Feel, feel
Nobody knows,
How much I've hurt, how much I've hurt
(Ooh yeah, yeah)
If you just gon' keep actin' this way
Just carryin' on this competitive sport, this tit for tat
Neither of us gon' win
You gon' have to meet me halfway there