mgk - Tickets to My Downfall Album Lyrics

I sold some tickets to come see my downfall
It sold out in minutes
I saw friends in the front row, they'll leave when I'm finished
And the light in my name's gone
'Cause the ones who gas you up only come around when the flame's on, and
(I gave you my light, oh, oh, oh)
Ayy, f*ck it

(Yeah, yeah, yeah)
I use a razor to take off the edge
"Jump off the ledge," they said
(Yeah, yeah, yeah)
"Take the laser, aim at my head and paint the walls red," I said
(Yeah, yeah, yeah)
"I'm crazy, I'm off the meds, I'm better off dead," they said
(Yeah, yeah, yeah)
I use a razor to take off the edge, jump off the ledge

I'm sellin' tickets to my downfall
I'm sellin' tickets to my downfall
I'm sellin' tickets to my downfall
I'm sellin' tickets to my downfall

My fingers burnin' from the temperatures
My preacher led me off the precipice (F*ck)
If I'm a painter, I'd be a depression-ist
I need this time to decompress from this
Ketamine, this cocaine, this medicine for my growin' pain
This weed I've been smokin', I'm dyin' inside

(Yeah, yeah, yeah)
I use a razor to take off the edge
"Jump off the ledge," they said
(Yeah, yeah, yeah)
"Take the laser, aim at my head and paint the walls red," I said
F*ck you
"I'm crazy, I'm off the meds, I'm better off dead," they said
(Yeah, yeah, yeah)
I use a razor to take off the edge, jump off the ledge

I'm sellin' tickets to my downfall
I'm sellin' tickets to my downfall
I'm sellin' tickets to my downfall
I'm sellin' tickets to my downfall

Okay
Get me out of this house, and get me out of my head
Get me a drink and a cigarette
I just need to go out 'cause I can sleep when I'm dead
Drop me off at The Rox on Sunset

Hey, you, same time and the same place
We can get shitfaced, yeah-yeah
Hey, you, there's a lot that I wanna say
But that's for another day, okay

Kiss, kiss, kiss, kiss the bottle all night
Kiss, kiss, kiss, kiss the bottle, yeah
Kiss, kiss, kiss, kiss the bottle all night
Hello, goodbye

Uh, let's get back in the car, it's time to do it again
Light up a blunt and a cigarette (let's go)
I went back in the bar and told her bring all her friends
I don't even know where we're going yet

Hey, you, same time and the same place
We can get shitfaced, yeah-yeah
Hey, you, there's a lot that I wanna say
But that's for another day, okay

Kiss, kiss, kiss, kiss the bottle all night
Kiss, kiss, kiss, kiss the bottle, yeah
Kiss, kiss, kiss, kiss the bottle all night
Hello, goodbye
Kiss, kiss, kiss, kiss the bottle all night
Kiss, kiss, kiss, kiss the bottle, yeah
Kiss, kiss, kiss, kiss the bottle all night
Hello, goodbye

Kiss, kiss, kiss, kiss the bottle all night
Kiss, kiss, kiss, kiss the bottle, yeah
Kiss, kiss, kiss, kiss the bottle all night
Kiss, kiss, kiss, kiss the bottle, yeah

Kiss, kiss, kiss, kiss the bottle all night
Hello, goodbye
Kiss, kiss, kiss, kiss the bottle all night
Hello, goodbye, yeah

Goodbye, yeah

I'm still young wasting my youth
I'll grow up next summer
I'm back on those drugs I quit
I kept my dealer's number
I'm still young wasting my youth
I'll grow up next summer
I'm back on that girl I quit
I should've lost her number

I'm overcompensating for heartbreak
I swallowed a pill that was in a heart shape
Her hands on my chest feeling my heartbeat
She's spilling her drink all on my car seat
She'll get attached and then trap me
Then I gotta act like I'm happy
She posts pics to get at me
Déjà vu, just like last week

I'm still young wasting my youth
I'll grow up next summer
I'm back on those drugs I quit
I kept my dealer's number
I'm still young wasting my youth
I'll grow up next summer
I'm back on that girl I quit
I should've lost her number

Pedal to the floor, yeah, I can't break
The floor of the hotel's my ashtray
She opened the door and walked past me
I'm a Hollywood whore, I don't ask names
Yeah, let's get high as f*ck
I'm trying to coverup
Eyes that have seen too much
I'd go blind for her touch

I'm still young wasting my youth
I'll grow up next summer
I'm back on those drugs I quit
I kept my dealer's number
I'm still young wasting my youth
I'll grow up next summer
I'm back on that girl I quit
I should've lost her number

I'm still young
I'm wasted and I'm not getting younger
I'll grow up
I promise that I'll grow up next summer
I'm still young
I'm wasted and I'm not getting younger
I'll grow up
I promise that I'll grow up next summer

I'm still young, I'm wasted and I'm not getting younger (you plus me is euphoria)
I'm still young, I promise that I'll grow up next summer (I have sinned, don't help me Jesus)

Okay, the simulation just went bad
But you're the best I ever had
Like handprints in wet cement
She touched me, it's permanent

In my head, in my head
I couldn't hear anything you said, but
In my head, in my head
I'm callin' you, "Girlfriend," what the f*ck?

I don't do fake love, but I'll take some from you tonight
I know I've got to go but I might just miss the flight
I can't stay forever, let's play pretend
And treat this night like it'll happen again
You'll be my bloody valentine tonight

I'm overstimulated and I'm sad
I don't expect you to understand
It's nothing less than true romance
Or am I just making a mess

In my head, in my head
I'm lying naked with you, yeah
In my head, in my head
I'm ready to die holding your hand

I don't do fake love, but I'll take some from you tonight (take some from you tonight)
I know I've got to go but I might just miss the flight
I can't stay forever, let's play pretend
And treat this night like it'll happen again
You'll be my bloody valentine tonight

I can't hide
How I feel about you
Inside
I'd give everything up
Tonight
If I could just have you be mine
Be mine, baby

I can't hide
How I feel about you
Inside
I'd give everything up
Tonight
If I could just have you be mine
Be mine

Ayy, I don't do fake love, but I'll take some from you tonight (take some from you tonight)
I know I've got to go, but I might just miss the flight
I can't stay forever, let's play pretend
And treat this night like it'll happen again
You'll be my bloody valentine tonight

(Let me take my f*ckin' bracelet off)

You want me to forget you
Okay, forget me too
You tell me you hate me
Baby, yeah, I bet you do

Damn
I saw you walk in the room and I tried my best
Not to panic while I'm lookin' for the back door
I smell the perfume and it's obvious
I'm gonna stay and put my key in the back more
I can't, I can't, I can't pretend to forget you're
The reason I punched a hole in the wall back home
And then, and then, and then a couple hours later we're in Room 29 at The Chateau

I left before you woke up
I don't feel right (see you sober)

You want me to forget you
Okay, forget me too
You tell me you hate me
Baby, yeah, I bet you do
I'm keepin' you waitin'
But I won't wait on you
Want me to forget you
Okay, forget me too

I've wasted so much time
Waitin' around for your phone calls every night
My bad dreams are silk screens
'Cause I taste blood when you bleed
It's eatin' me alive
We'd both be better off alone
Still think I'd get you on the phone
With one last breath in me
I'd die before I'd let you leave

You left before I woke up
Why don't I ever see you sober?

You want me to forget you
Okay, forget me too
You tell me you hate me
Baby, yeah, I bet you do
I'm keepin' you waitin'
But I won't wait on you
You want me to forget you
Okay, forget me too

Hey you
Tell me why you do the things that make me (hate you)
It's an emotional kaleidoscope when I (face you)
Permanent calligraphy, I just tattooed your name on me forever

You want me to forget you
Okay, forget me too
You tell me you hate me
Baby, yeah, I bet you do
I'm keepin' you waitin' (waitin')
But I won't wait on you
Want me to forget you
Okay, forget me too

All I know is I don't know nothin'
All I know is I don't know nothin' at all
People talk but they don't say nothin'
All I know is I don't know nothin' at all

No license, I'm still ridin'
Crashed into a tree and kept drivin'
My label hates that I'm like this
I gotta go through shit to keep writin'
All these girls, I don't want none of them
But I know I'll end up with one of them
My life on the outside's fun to them
But the person on the inside is crumblin'

All I know is I don't know nothin'
All I know is I don't know nothin' at all
People talk but they don't say nothin'
All I know is I don't know nothin' at all

All I know is I don't know nothin'
I love you, but I don't love nothin' at all
Yeah, the world is crazy, so corrupted
I'm by myself, so I don't feel too involved
'Cause I'm alone, alone, alone
Don't know who to call, don't know, I don't know (yeah, yeah)
If you know the answer to these things, let me know (yeah)
Let me know, let me know again

All I know is I don't know nothin'
All I know is I don't know nothin' at all
People talk but they don't say nothin'
All I know is I don't know nothin' at all

Ripped jeans, I've been runnin' from the cops all night
I'm dead, I don't care about nothin'
Bloody teeth in my mouth when I smiled last night
Broke his jaw, now he can't say nothin'
Nothin' at all

I got in trouble
The first time my dad saw me dance with the devil
How are we so opposite?
I lived with your sister
My first home since mom had left
And I wrote my first song with him in the basement

And then he said goodbye way too soon
And this don't feel right without you

Lonely, lonely even when the room is full
I'd trade it, trade it, I would trade it all for you
Lonely, lonely even when the room is full
I'm lonely, lonely, lonely without you

I got in trouble
The first time the cops saw me dance with the devil
I ended up in handcuffs and then you called your sister
She cried when she picked me up
Goddamn, how I miss her
'Cause she didn't give a f*ck

And then she said goodbye way too soon
And this don't feel right without you

Lonely, lonely even when the room is full
I'd trade it, trade it, I would trade it all for you
Lonely, lonely even when the room is full
I'm lonely, lonely, lonely without you

The last time I saw you (f*ck)
I cried, I wished you had more time left
The last time I heard you
They held the phone, you took your last breath
The last time I saw you (saw you)
I cried, I wished you had more time left
The last time I heard you (heard you)
They held the phone, you took your last breath

Lonely, lonely even when the room is full
I'd trade it, trade it, I would trade it all for you
Lonely, lonely even when the room is full
I'd trade it, trade it, I'd trade it all for you
Lonely, lonely even when the room is full
I'd trade it, train it, I'd trade it all for you
Lonely, lonely even when the room is full
I hate this, I'm jaded, and I trade it all for you

"Boy, it was just a dangerous birth
His umbilical cord was stuck around his neck
And so I ended up, undoing the umbilical cord and uh
Well he was bigger than a normal child
I don't know what it was but he had uh, uh
He had a heart problem, and they didn't think he would live"

Hey, who the f*ck are you, to tell me what to do?
'Cause I am not your bitch, shit

At least, make it look good while you're lying to me
Goddammit, I'm trying to find inner peace
But it's World War III

Go ahead and criticize my life you know so much about
I will not minimize the fact that you counted me out
Told all the bad news, and left all the good shit out

F*ck!

At least, make it look good while you're lying to me
Goddammit, I'm trying to find inner peace
But it's World War III

Yo?
Yo
Okay, wait, Pete, before we start
Can you just give me some beep-boops, beep-boop-boop
Beep-boop-boop, beep-boop-boop-boop, beep-boop-boop, boop
Wh-what's your alien name?
Roger, no I'm gonna be Kevin dude, I wanna be Kevin the alien
Why was mine such a bad name? Mine was Barracuda (haha)
Kevin and Barracuda, dude
I'm like
I'm like, coming down off mushrooms by the way
Oh, that's great
I can hear this water running, hold on, is that water still on?
That's not me
Oh, it's not? (Woah)
Could you be both aliens?
You want me to be both aliens?
Just say, say, "You know what place blows? Earth"
"I agree"
"You know what place blows? Earth
I agree, grab the sack, let's go to Mars"
Haha, haha, we're such losers
Hahahaha, haha
That's why we gotta leave Earth, man
"Don't forget, bring the weed"

The headlines say, "The world is over"
Whatever happened to a fairy tale ending
You can't pass if you don't know the code word
I'm inside of a UFO crash landing
I'm in the room by the door, with a space invader
I know that I'm immature, but at least I'm not a goddamn failure

S-O-S
I'm calling
S-O-S
I'm calling out
S-O-S
I'm falling
S-O-S
I'm falling now
I'm upside down
I'm upside down
I'm upside down
My life is a roller coaster
Roller coaster
Get me off this roller coaster
(Get me off this roller coaster)

I heard you never graduated from high school
The food sucked and the kids were awful
I know you wanted me to go to law school
I dyed my hair, pierced my nostril
I know I've done this before, but it's a mind eraser
I'm waking up on the floor I got to get my life back later

S-O-S
I'm calling
S-O-S
I'm calling out
S-O-S
I'm falling
S-O-S
I'm falling now
I'm upside down
I'm upside down
I'm upside down
My life is a roller coaster
Roller coaster
Get me off this roller coaster

I'm in too deep
I feel too much
I'm insecure
I f*ck things up
I'm in too deep
I feel too much
I'm insecure
I get f*cked

S-O-S
I'm calling
S-O-S
I'm calling out
S-O-S
I'm falling
S-O-S
I'm falling now

I'm calling
I'm calling
I'm calling
I'm calling out
I'm falling
I'm falling
I'm falling
I'm falling out

I'm calling (S-O-S)
I'm calling
I'm calling (S-O-S)
I'm calling out
I'm falling (S-O-S)
I'm falling
I'm falling (S-O-S)
I'm falling now

F*ck, I said the wrong lyric, ooh, keep that

Ayy
You know my ex
So that makes it all feel complicated, yeah
(It all seems complicated)
I read those texts
That you sent to yours but I'll never say it, yeah
(I'll never say)

You walked in my life at 2 AM
'Cause my boy's new girl is your best friend
Act like you don't see me, we'll play pretend
Your eyes already told me what you never said

Now we're in the back seat of the black car going home
When she asked me, "Is it wrong if I come up with you?"
We're both drunk on the elevator
When I kissed you for the first time in New York City, uh

I swear to God, I never fall in love
Then you showed up and I can't get enough of it
I swear to God, I never fall in love
I never fall in love but I can't get enough of it

First off, I'm not sorry
I won't apologize to nobody
You play like I'm invisible
Girl, don't act like you ain't saw me
Last year was a mess and how I acted was beyond me
But the past still revolves me
You text me, I ain't responding
But now shit's done changed
Go our separate ways
But look at this damage you did to me
I still want nothin' to do between you and me
Please, don't say nothing at all, sounds so true to me
We don't have nothing to say, hey

I swear to God, I never fall in love
Then you showed up and I can't get enough of it
I swear to God, I never fall in love
I never fall in love but I can't get enough of it
I swear to God, I never fall in love
Then you showed up and I can't get enough of it
I swear to God, I never fall in love
I never fall in love but I can't get enough of it

You know my ex
So that makes it all feel complicated, yeah
(It all seems complicated)
I read those texts
That you sent to yours but I'll never say it, yeah
(I'll never say)

"And this one is titled"

Jawbreaker, she tastes like candy, star chaser
And she's not landing, L.A.X is
In Miami
Jawbreaker, jawbreaker

Would it kill you to smile?
Let me occupy your mind
With a million miles an hour
And it f*cked up your design

6 A.M., six to peace, sun sex on the beach, uh
6 P.M., sexy girl, still can't let her leave, uh
6 A.M., back again for the same thing, yeah
6 P.M., I won't end 'til I can't breathe, uh

Jawbreaker, she tastes like candy, star chaser
And she's not landing, L.A.X is
In Miami
Jawbreaker, jawbreaker

I can feel you from the waist down
There's a movie on with no sound
I'm the architect of this town
You're the prototype I need now

6 A.M., six to peace, sun sex on the beach, uh
6 P.M., back again for the same things, yeah

Jawbreaker, she tastes like candy, star chaser
And she's not landing, L.A.X is
In Miami
Jawbreaker, jawbreaker

(Jawbreaker
Jawbreaker
Jawbreaker
Jawbreaker
Jawbreaker)

I keep doing that thing where I'm thinking again
I got skeletons in my closet (closet)
I got nightmares sleeping again
I gave you my heart you lost it (lost it)
She's a girl from a small town
But we're in the big city and she's in my passenger seat right now
'Cause we live in a small world
I told her, "It's all yours
But I need to know if you're down"
I can't help it (I can't help it)
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

I did this all for you
Look what I turned into
She looked dead into my eyes and she saw nothing inside
I did this all for you
Look what I turned into
She looked dead in my eyes and she saw nothing inside

I keep doing that thing where I'm smoking again
Too much and now I'm faded
Keep tearing my heart now it's open again
A few drunk texts, now you're naked
(I can't help it, I can't help it)
(I feel selfish) I feel selfish (selfish)
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

I did this all for you
Look what I turned into
She looked dead in my eyes and she saw nothing inside
I did this all for you
Look what I turned into
She looked dead in my eyes and she saw nothing inside

It's been a long time since I was young
And she was the first face I was looking to call mine
She said it's alright, had a couple of drinks
And I got issues we can fight about all night

I did this all for you
Look what I turned into
She looked dead in my eyes and she saw nothing inside
I did this all for you
Look what I turned into
She looked dead in my eyes and she saw nothing inside

I'm running low on serotonin in these empty moments
I'm having trouble operating without my main component
I'm running low on serotonin in these empty moments
I'm having trouble operating without my main component

My God
Did you drink a lot of tequila (yeah), is that what it was? (Yeah)
You wanna listen to the interlude while we sit here?
Yeah
Put it on
Do you like remember the stuff that you do with me?
Yes
Okay I don't know, 'cause you're so high or like you get really drunk
So I don't know if you remember it
Of course I do (okay)
I cherish it

I burn other memories just to make room for those ones
That was four months ago, that we were right here
And I met you
That's not possible

Like you just got my initials tattoo'd on you
And I got your nickname tattoo'd on me (I know)

She loves a boy so much
She wants to steal him to steal her breath
She loves (she loves) a boy so much
She wants (She wants) to steal him to steal her breath

Because also, if the world was coming to an end
I don't want to close my eyes without feeling like I lived

Same

I'm writing you this message just so I can say that I love you, mm
I had to let you know that everything about me was you, yeah
I think it's time for me to leave but I'll never leave you
I just looked at your pictures so the last thing I did was see you
I'm twenty-nine, my anxiety's eating me alive
I'm fighting with myself and my sobriety every night
And last time I couldn't barely open up my eyes, I apologize

I'm not gonna lie and tell you it's alright, it's alright
You're gonna cry and, baby, that's alright, it's alright
I wrote you this song to keep, when I'm gone if you ever feel alone
You're gonna cry and, baby, that's alright, it's alright

I hope you get to go to all the places that I showed you
When I was on the road and couldn't be home to hold you
Part of me doesn't want this cruel world to know you
So just try and keep in mind everything that I told you
I'm twenty-nine and society's eating me alive
I'm fighting what comes this notoriety every night
This is the last time I'll ever open up my eyes, I apologize

I'm not gonna lie and tell you it's alright, it's alright
You're gonna cry and, baby, that's alright, it's alright
I wrote you this song to keep, when I'm gone if you ever feel alone
You're gonna cry and, baby, that's alright, it's alright

And I'll miss you
I'll miss you
I'll miss you
I'll miss you, yeah
And I'll miss you
I'll miss you
I'll miss you
I'll miss you
And I'll miss you (I'll miss you)
I'll miss you (I'll miss you)
I'll miss you (I'll miss you)
I'll miss you, yeah
And I'll miss you (and I'll miss you)
I'll miss you (I'll miss you)
I'll miss you (I'll miss you)
I'll miss you
And I'll miss you
I'll miss you
I'll miss you
I'll miss you, yeah
And I'll miss you
I'll miss you
I'll miss you
I'll miss you