mgk - Genre : Sadboy Album Lyrics

I guess I lost my life again
It's just one of those nights again
No one wants their life to end
Drownin' now in the life of sin
I guess I lost my life again
It's just one of those nights again
No one wants their life to end
Drownin' now in the life of sin

Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Yeah

Bloodshot, blue eyes, I recorded two tonight
One is for all those I love, this one's for the suicide
Everything is blue inside, everyone at you and I
People won't say how they feel about you until you die
Everything's cinematic, protagonist catches a bad habit
By the end, he's a damn addict
Leave him guessin', make a sequel
Let everyone say that it wasn't as good as the first
And they lost their damn magic
Y'all being pragmatic, bitch, I'm Illmatic
I'm rich and still savage, I'm rich and I'm unhappy
I wish I was back in the days
When I had a shitty shirt with my hat backwards
Now I'm alone in a vamp castle
I'm telling myself it's the last caspule
But why would I even wanna be alive
To see her with someone at Art Basel? So I

I guess I lost my life again
It's just one of those nights again
No one wants their life to end
Drownin' now in the life of sin
I guess I lost my life again
It's just one of those nights again
No one wants their life to end
Drownin' now in the life of sin

Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Yeah

Let go, so let go, jump in
Oh, well, whatcha waiting for?
It's alright
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown

4 a.m. I'm noddin' off (beauty in the breakdown)
Hope this wasn't fentanyl (beauty in the breakdown)
Hide behind this camouflage (beauty in the breakdown)
It's always my f*ckin' fault (beauty in the breakdown)
But I don't wanna let go, let go (let go, so let go, jump in)
(Oh, well, whatcha waitin' for?)
I'm never gonna let go, let go (it's alright)
('Cause there's beauty in the breakdown)

I'm sufferin' from boredom in suburbia (uh)
I need a hit of euphoria (uh), I'm stuck in Disturbia
I got this pain in my gut like a hernia (uh)
I got the jitters they worryin' (yeah)
I don't take out, I just order in (uh)
Cross the Arizona border
And ship across the sand like The Mandalorian (pshh)
Twenty one days clean (yeah), that won't break a habit
Twenty two days later, I'm a f*ckin' addict (ah)
Lost a real one, so I went and got him tatted (got him)
Can't eat, can't sleep, life doesn't matter (yeah)
Cultivated in the seven layers (you can't await)
'Cause my family's cursed for seven generations (your own arrival)
In the numerology, I'm here to break it ('cause it's all going off)
But the voice inside of me won't entertain it (you can't await)
There's a part of me that stopped embracing (your own arrival)
Any memories, so I'm tryin' to erase them ('cause it's all going off)
The medicine doin' damage to my brain (without you)
'Cause the pain is too present, I'm tryin' to be vacant
Uppers and downers are keepin' me up until

4 a.m. I'm noddin' off (beauty in the breakdown)
Hope this wasn't fentanyl (beauty in the breakdown)
Hide behind this camouflage (beauty in the breakdown)
It's always my f*ckin' fault (beauty in the breakdown)
But I don't wanna let go, let go (let go, so let go, jump in)
(Oh, well, whatcha waitin' for?)
I'm never gonna let go, let go (it's alright)
('Cause there's beauty in the breakdown)

Baby, I won't let you go (yeah)
I promise that I see right through the smoke
Lovin' you is not a joke (yeah)
That's why I laugh at devilish hoes (haha)
It's not a moment that we had I won't feel for (yeah)
Not a moment that we had I would't kill for (oh)
Not a moment that we had I wasn't built for
Good vibes only, that's for sure (that's for sure)
I'm a hot boy colder than the snow (than the snow)
I swear I had to let you know, I can see the crows
Death is down the road (road)

4 a.m. I'm noddin' off (beauty in the breakdown)
Hope this wasn't fentanyl (beauty in the breakdown)
Hide behind this camouflage (beauty in the breakdown)
It's always my f*ckin' fault (beauty in the breakdown)
But I don't wanna let go, let go (let go, so let go, jump in)
(Oh, well, whatcha waitin' for?)
I'm never gonna let go, let go (it's alright)
('Cause there's beauty in the breakdown)

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh

Yeah, when I die, leave my chains on
While I'm alive I roll it, light it, smoke it
Get me high, but that's just how I brainstorm
Ain't this what we made for?
Light a blunt, jump on a cloud
And then I fly away, and I can make it rainstorm
I've been up, this day four, choppin' up cocaine more
Pullin' out in that Wraith car, pistol in the side door (oh)
What you feel alive for?
This ain't what we cry for, this ain't what we die for
Keep a missile, that's my sidearm

Leave out the crib, in all black, with a mask
Got me feelin' like Christian Bale
I gotta cross out the faces on pictures (oh-oh)
'Cause everyone dead or end up in jail
F*ckin' his bitch from the back
But I won't say her name, 'cause I do not kiss and tell (oh)
Know that I'm Heaven-sent, but off the medicine
Bitch, I might just give 'em hell

We gon' ride for this, they gon' die for this
Back outside with this
Change your mind with this
We gon' ride for this, they gon' die for this
Back outside with this
Change your mind with this
Don't got time for this, out of my mind for this
Too one-sided, bitch, and I see both sides of shit
It's for life with this, it's on sight with this
We got sights for this, got my stripes from this

When I die, put my gang on, they know where my grave goin'
Bury me back in Cleveland inside of the coffin
Sleepin' with the fangs on
I'm a real demon, keep a chainsaw
Might f*ck this bitch with my chains on
Don't ever let the money change y'all
I was high as f*ck in the ozone
She was high as f*ck off the unknown
She gon' blow like a trombone
We gon' let off the drumroll, that's a drum solo
Anemic with the shit, a heater with the shit
I'm hittin' like I'm Derek Jeter with the shit
I'm sleepin' with the shit
I'm paranoid keep me a reaper in the shit
They creepin' with the shit
I'm geekin' off the shit, I'm tweakin' off the shit
I chop a line and then I eat it off a bitch
I'm mafioso with the meetings in this bitch
They prayin' I don't got my demons in this bitch
Shawty f*ckin' sucked the semen off my dick
I'm a demon child, real heathen in this bitch
They want the smoke, bring the heat like a BIC
Ice on my neck, turn the heat on lil' bitch
I could start up the car with the key to this shit
You ain't wanna be down, why agree to this shit?
F*ck the world, want it all, I'm a greedy, lil' bitch
Big Redd got the sauce baked ziti, lil' bitch

We gon' ride for this, they gon' die for this
Back outside with this
Change your mind with this
We gon' ride for this, they gon' die for this
Back outside with this
Change your mind with this
Don't got time for this, out of my mind for this
Too one-sided, bitch, and I see both sides of shit
It's for life with this, it's on sight with this
We got sights for this, got my stripes from this

Wonder what makes me happy again
What the f*ck makes me happier, friend?
Hope that I die with a happier end
Not a thing, not a ring could make me happier, and

I know I struggle with drugs
And I know I struggle with love
Sometimes I'm sad as hell
And I'm not really happy to be here
Sometimes I'm mad as hell
And I'm not really happy to be here (oh)

Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh, oh, no

Ayy, I got drugs, I don't need any friends (uh)
What a surprise, I'm feeling sick again (yeah)
Dilated, tryin' to walk on the edge
Told myself I wouldn't do it again
So, if I can't come back to you
Then let's talk like I'm gone forever
I'd buy back the time with you I wasted
It's better late than never
We contrast to tell the truth
Without me, you'll probably be better
With my last breath, inhale smoke
And get high one last time, whatever

I know I struggle with drugs
And I know I struggle with love
Sometimes I'm sad as hell
And I'm not really happy to be here
Sometimes I'm mad as hell
And I'm not really happy to be here (oh)

Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh, oh, no

Suddenly, suddenly
I watched you decide how it's gonna be
Summon me, summon me
To the other side from this tragedy
Underneath, underneath
Hide it all inside, underneath
Kept it in disguise under me
Everyone's alive except for me

No one on my side, it's only me (only me)
How can I survive by any means? (Any means)
Have you ever f*ckin' cried in a limousine? (Oh-oh)
Think about you when I'm high, you're like a melody
Oh, in my head, no-oh
I thought we had something special, it ended up dead
F*ck it, ended up dead, damn
You were on my side, allegedly (on my side, bro)
Fell out with my guys 'cause of jealousy (what the f*ck, bro?)
I thought we was tight, but we enemies (what the f*ck?)
Now it's on sight if you mention me
I flipped the switch (oh)
And turned-and turned off my emotions like I f*ckin' glitched (word)
And-and I'm too high to notice (yeah)
Fallin' through the oceans (oh)
Drownin' in this drink that look like potions
This shit get me through the motions, oh-oh

Suddenly (yeah), suddenly (yeah)
I watched you decide how it's gonna be
Summon me (summon me), summon me (oh-oh)
To the other side from this tragedy
Underneath (underneath), underneath (underneath)
Hide it all inside, underneath (all inside)
Kept it in disguise under me (disguise)
Everyone's alive except for me (me, except for me)

Yeah

Baby, fire in hell in my head
Fire in hell in my bed
I'm feelin' blown and half dead, oh

Woke up sad
Woke up sad than a f*ck (f*ck)
Woke up sad
Guess I'm happy when I'm sad as a f*ck

Probably 'cause I'm all alone
Don't even call me, leave a message at the tone
Your petty ass done hurt me to the bone
All this hurt, don't wanna even sing no singy songs

But my mind sing 'em anyway
But my mind will be singin' them today
But my mind sing 'em anyway
But my mind wanna hear it all play (yeah, yeah)

Woke up sad (oh-oh)
I just saw my girl switch up (what the f*ck?)
Woke up sad (oh-oh, yeah)
Lookin' through the glass, I can see it's no love
Like a guillotine (yeah), all the lines got cut (yeah)
And I can't sleep (no), but my eyes both shut (no)
Like, I thought I was with you, but we always break up
Like, I got enemies and we can't make up

Woke up sad, woke up sad than a f*ck (f*ck)
Woke up sad, guess I'm happy when I'm sad as a f*ck (f*ck)
I'm gon' survive in this shit, and stay alive in this shit (yeah)
And thrive in this shit, I will not die in this shit
In my head, in my head, in my head
I'm gon' survive in this shit, and stay alive in this shit (yeah)
And thrive in this shit, I will not die in this shit
In my head, in my head, in my head

Probably 'cause I'm all alone
Don't even call me, leave a message at the tone
Your petty ass done hurt me to the bone
All this hurt, don't wanna even sing no singy songs

But my mind sing 'em anyway
But my mind will be singin' them today
But my mind sing 'em anyway
But my mind wanna hear it all play

I'm hiding in the hills, but this not where I belong
I don't have no friends in this motherf*ckin' room
When does all this end? I've been stayin' up 'til dawn
Runnin' by myself, but the devil came along, yeah

Roll it, roll it, roll it, roll it up, I'm tryna smoke (yeah)
Posted in this cloud, it look like I'm turnin' to ghost (phew)
Got a lot of problems that I'm wearin' on my soul (mm)
And I'm not good at talkin', so I keep it to myself (yeah)
Always been a loner, never had no one else (uh)
I like sippin' even though it's bad for my health (uh)
Everybody's dyin' cause we can't get no help (mmm)
It keeps on multiplin' all this pain that I felt
I'm f*ckin' lonely since I lost the old me ('cause he died)
'Cause he died back then when you told me (f*ckin' died)
What does old mean when you turn forty? (Turn forty)
Man, f*ck, no

And you're still hiding in the hills, but this not where I belong
I don't have no friends in this motherf*ckin' room (oh)
When does all this end? I've been stayin' up 'til dawn (mmm)
Runnin' by myself, but the devil came along (yeah)

But the devil came along, sing your favorite song
Man, I love it when they run
Choppers sing, they hit the ground
See me in the afterlife, never in your town
Boy, I'm never lookin' down, and my money heaven bound
Like Jesus save me (Jesus save)
Tryin' to play me (tryin' to play), nigga, play and see (play)
You wanna be fly as me, you wanna be high as me
She had the spice (hah), your diamonds, hide and seek (yeah)
My shit in sight (yeah), he wanna die with me
You got the sight (yeah), do you wanna ride with me?
The Dark Night riding through the hills

I'm hiding in the hills, but this not where I belong
I don't have no friends in this motherf*ckin' room
When does all this end? I've been stayin' up 'til dawn
Runnin' by myself, but the devil came along
Hiding in the hills, but this not where I belong
I don't have no friends in this motherf*ckin' room
When does all this end? I've been stayin' up 'til dawn
Runnin' by myself, but the devil came along

Yeah

I remember he was like, "I think I wanna move to Florida"
And then a week later this nigga was house shopping
I was like, "What the f*ck?"

Ayy, I don't make friends no more, I don't take Xans no more
I can't pretend no more, these thoughts won't end no more
I don't do trends no more, I'm not like them no more
I don't look up no more, don't give a f*ck no more

I'm in the ends right now, Devil's dens right now
Cartier lens right now, in death's Benz right now
I'm off the hinge right now, might sin right now
Nothin' to give right now, nothin' to live right now
No one to call no more, don't eat in the mall no more
No skippin' in halls no more, no gettin' in brawls no more
No, I'm not the fall no more, yeah, I want it all and more
The pain on my mind is sore (yeah)
But I made the sky my floor

Ayy, I don't make friends no more, I don't take Xans no more
I can't pretend no more, these thoughts won't end no more
I don't do trends no more, I'm not like them no more
I don't look up no more, don't give a f*ck no more

I'm off the grid right now, I'm stressin' big right now
I'm smokin' cigs right now, I'm off a fifth right now
I got my kid right now, I got a crib right now
I'm finally rich right now, I'm tryna live right now

I hate that I grew up sad as a kid (mm)
Then I grew up and got sadder again (mm)
I hate that I couldn't say what I meant (mm)
I hate every interview that I did (mm)
Lookin' at life through a negative lens (yeah)
Lookin' like, "Who are my negative friends?" (Mm)
Pullin' up late at the table again (mm)
Then they start askin' for favors again (mm)
You can be Cain, I'll be Abel again
We can be brothers, we can't be friends (mm)
You'll take my heart and then break it again
Price on my head and I paid it again

Ayy, I don't make friends no more, I don't take Xans no more
I can't pretend no more, these thoughts won't end no more
I don't do trends no more, I'm not like them no more
I don't look up no more, don't give a f*ck no more
I don't make friends no more, I don't take Xans no more
I can't pretend no more, these thoughts won't end no more
I don't do trends no more, I'm not like them no more
I don't look up no more, don't give a f*ck no more

Who is still on the road?
How can I get away with those notes?
There's only one way, oh-oh, oh-oh

Where do I go from here?
Who do I know in here?
I want it all again
Who can I call again?
Percocet crawlin' my skin
Falling again

Everything is grey without you
There's nothin' to save if I'm here without you
I picked up the phone and I'm finna dial you
You said you're alone but I really doubt you

I never had that, so if you put it in my vision, I'ma grab that
I never been a nigga that them bitches laughed at
(Ha, ha, ha)
I just made a half a million off of ASCAP
If I'm runnin' then I'm winnin' in the last lap
She tried to push me to the limit, but I'm passed that
I'm sipping liquor feelin' good, but shit is bad, bad
Bad (bad), bad (bad), bad, hm-mm

Where do I go from here?
Who do I know in here?
I want it all again
Who can I call again?
Percocet crawlin' my skin
Falling again

Everything is grey without you
There's nothin' to save if I'm here without you
I picked up the phone and I'm finna dial you
You said you're alone but I really doubt you

Nothing special, so forgetful, oh
Nothing special, nothing special, oh
You're nothing special, nothing special to me
Nothing special to me

I'm my own enemy (mm)
I reject the fact that I'm worse and you're past that
And you stole all my energy (mm)
And even though my heart's black
I can't let you have that (can't let you have that)
You've been loving me the wrong way (it's not alright)
Never tellin' me you love me (it's not alright)
Listenin' to what your friends say (it's not alright)
I should've left you in the first place (yeah)

Where do I go from here?
Who do I know in here?
I want it all again
Who can I call again?
Percocet crawlin' my skin
Falling again

Everything is grey without you
There's nothin' to save if I'm here without you
I picked up the phone and I'm finna dial you
You said you're alone but I really doubt you

Who is still on the road?
How can I get away with those notes?
There's only one way, oh-oh, oh-oh

Leave me out to dry and rot
Obviously I cry a lot
Want me to be what I am not
Stuck in my head, I try a lot

I can't quiet my thoughts
Don't let them out this Pandora's Box
I ruined my wedding, now I wish I had a rope so I could still tie the knot
Leave my body cold as the north
Hangin' from the ceiling fan, spinnin' in circles
Die young, leave a beautiful corpse
I know that it's selfish, but it ain't to hurt you
I needed some peace from the war in my head I've been fighting for twenty years
Way too much PTSD to smile about anything, even if I had veneers
Only therapy that's workin' is when I'm on this microphone with my engineer
These songs are the only way that I can communicate with you when I'm no longer here
And fear of loneliness is solely responsible for why I ran everyone away
Searchin' for paradise when I was already in it is why it got took away
All that I ask is if I make it to Heaven from this life, I don't have to press "Replay"
All I'm askin' you after a life of sinning if it's ever too late to pray?

Leave me out to dry and rot
Obviously I cry a lot
Want me to be what I am not
Stuck in my head, I try a l