Message Man - Hope&caffeine Lyrics

I'm so sorry for the things of done
I'm so sorry we don't talk enough
I'm sorry I was never there
And my actions show I never cared

I'm stuck on the image of a creep
I'm afraid I'm in too deep
You don't see the tears I weep
Cause the cost of commission is too cheap

What if the best of me is already gone?
When I'm not even used as a pawn
That I'm holding onto dreams forgone
Scared to let go, so I hold on

I try to paint a face that's brave
Which one of us lies in this grave?
Someone has to win
Something has to give
Yeah, Yeah

I'm so sorry for the things of done
I'm so sorry we don't talk enough
I'm sorry I was never there
And my actions show I never cared

Im so sorry for the things I've done
I'm sorry that I never tried
I'm sorry that we're smaller than my pride
I'm sorry that I'm so screwed up inside

What happens when I can longer handle my fears?
Like my windshield it fogs, defrost so it clears
But I used som me crappy spray, so it just smears
I wait, frustrated; it never disappears

What happens when the weight of my fear, my doubt, all of self hatred come down and I can't handle the weight?
Will I await with bate, to circumnavigate
In odd attempt to find my fate?
Something I can't alternate, but don't have the heart to wait

What happens when I say I'm tired and I can't do this anymore
What happens when I say I'm not the same as I was before?
What happens when I'm finally washed ashore?
Will I be changed, or a shell, a carcass, hollow on the core?

I'm so sorry for the things of done
I'm so sorry we don't talk enough
I'm sorry I was never there
And my actions show I never cared

What happens when this becomes routine?
When I operate like a machine
Fueled by hope and caffeine
But I'm running low on hope and caffeine