Merk - Anti-Social Lyrics

I am very antisocial
Too depressed to be on social
All my friends go out and party
Life to them's a roller coaster
Wish that I could find somebody
That reminds me what I'm supposed to do when nobody's around me
Cus right now, Shit
I don't know what I'm supposed to do
I don't know what I'm supposed to do
I don't know what I'm supposed to do
I said
I don't know what I'm supposed to do

And I been on my own
Trying find a different road
Trying learn some melodies
Cus the rapping getting old
And I know that y'all don't feel lyrics like that anymore
Everybody wanna vibe
But nobody wanna feel
I feel like I'm dead inside
I can't even feel the pills
I think so much of suicide
I think tonight I prolly will
Pause

Too much hatred in my body
I don't f*ck with anybody
I'm just trying get this money
Even if I catch a body
Got a brother getting older
Got a momma who don't know me
Got a girl I'm prolly leaving
Cus the distance makes me lonely
Uh
I just wish ya'll get me like she do
Cus I swear I try my hardest
Spit my feelings in the booth
Just to try and share it to the people who
Feeling blue
Every day or two
But, every time I drop
I get one play or two

That shit is crazy
It don't amaze me

Cus people say they love you
And wanna see you shine
But when you try and build
They just wanna see you down
They just wanna see you down

Anyways , I just bough an Escalade
Trying find a better way to
Make it thru the days
Cus I feel I'm loosing hope
In my dreams to Escalate
I see rappers blowing up
And they only half my age
Talking bout just guns and drugs
While I struggle to get payed
I'm just hoping music works
Cus without it ,
I don't even wanna think about it
I don't even wanna think about it

And I been on my own
Trying find a different road
Trying learn some melodies
Cus the rapping getting old
And I know that y'all don't feel
Lyrics like that anymore
Everybody wanna vibe
But nobody wanna feel
I feel like I'm dead inside
I can't even feel the pills
I think so much of suicide
I think tonight I prolly will
Pause

I don't wanna be that idiot
Stuck at the bottom of the ladder
Stuck eating crumbs
Of the harvest that I gather
I'll rather
Use all my time to invest in the future
Cus without a plan
There's ain't no execution
And without some faith
There's ain't no solution
I sit and I pray
For self evolution
I wanna be better
The best I can be
I ain't no trendsetter
I learned to be me
I hope that with time
I make history
That's all I dream of
When I go to sleep

They say reach for the stars
But I'm reaching for mars
Cus ever since I was little
I was looking for more
Than a roof and a floor
I was looking for keys
To unlocking the doors

Cus I can't sit around and wait for things to happen cus they never will
I can't sit around and wait for things to happen cus they never will
I just hope I leave this earth with millions on my death will