Mercston - Bittersweet Lyrics

Head above the water
Feel like I'm drowning
Shall I fix things with the BM
Or should I find a browning
This Dior towelling
Just got back from tannin
Choice of wine was Pino Grigio
With cotton candy
More time my life's alright
Could tell you lost about it
But right now it's PEAK and I ain't on a mountain
Wants a baby
Said I'd give her a baby
But I just had a baby
I must be f*cking crazy
She's having complications
We know the conciliation
Still after many conversations
Still no confirmation
It's getting long for waiting
I ain't on debating
I've been tryna do this shit it's like I'm constipated
She had an operation
Next day I was raving
My excuse was that I told her prior the occasion
What kinda observation
F*ck the reservation
Like I don't know the full extent of what the doctors saying
They told her low reserve
She got egg retrieval
Lost herself i over heard that's what she said to people
All I do is gas she don't respect the diesel
After all the back and fourths I don't expect a Sequel
Some would say I'm evil
That medications lethal
I saw her cry before she try inject her self with needles
Strong but looking feeble
Sore not like an eagle
Friends tell her to spread her wings and fly a like a seagull

Lean in vehicle
Feeling spiritual
Pray
This tings critical
It's not just physical pain
She posting memes
When ever I read
I feel the subliminal's
Looking at this digital dash
Like how did this crash
But the reasons typical
Believe it's political
Now the contacts minimal
Getting no signal
Like I'm in originals
All tense it's the reason
I'm miserable

Dry cry dry cry
Lemme get like 5 more Mai Tai's
I'm up west with my guys
And the bartenders giving me side eyes

Jah know that I and I
Need to fix up before my 9 night
Death feels like it's get closer
Got bare tings on my mind
This LV is tie dye 9 bills my size
She's 5'5 size 4 heels 5
Big vibes tick ties ya zeit

I see Nuff mandem preeing
I ain't tryna lose her I ain't ediat
She got man hooked
I'm feeling like Adam in the garden of Eden

How you feeling nobody asks
Nobody reasons
From my past a lot of pain
A lot of demons
Yeah I got a heart
But most of the time that organs freezing
It's still beating
I'm too old to be out ere beating
Misleading and ch
Any pics you got just don't leak em
Still saying that I'm leaving
How bout we llow the beef and go vegan

Having my own way
How do I make it right
It's not ok
Who told you I don't care
I know I coulda done more
How could I understand if I weren't there
Yeah I shoulda been there

Yeah I should I should
Yeah I should
I should have been there
I should have been there
Yes I should I should
I should have been there