Hear Me Out (My Pain) [feat. Marcus Black] Video (MV)

Uh, check 1, 2
You know, I just want you to hear me out on this one
Yeah, yeah, uh...
Look

I sit and write, get on the mic, and then I give you my life
I've spent so many years not living it right
And I still ain't get it right, but I'm getting there
If I know one thing 'bout life, it just isn't fair
But even the odd man out can even the odds
You can't change your life if you don't see you charge
You see the thing about life is it's pick and choose
Some people choose to win, & others pick to lose
Now I ain't picking on nobody or depicting you
I just feel like I can't lose, I've been in a groove
Some people pick and roll, and some people post
It's hard to keep your eyes closed when you keep people close
And shit hurts the worst from the ones you love the most
Life is cold, but it's still it's so wonderful
You get hurt the worst from the ones you love the most
Said it's a cold world, yet and still it's wonderful
But y'all don't hear me
I'm right behind the wheel but it's God that's steering
I'm something special In The making I just got a feeling
A lot of niggas hating, I know I ain't gotta kill 'em
But shit, I probably will anyways
'Cause it'll kill 'em seeing me do good any day
Plus Uncle Sam don't wanna see me with a penny saved
We in the land of the grief, home of plenty slaves
But ima fight until I'm free or laying in my grave

Yeah, I just want to thank y'all for letting me get that off my chest...
This is Melrose by the way, in case you didn't know...

Now what's it like spending nights on the street
Can't make ends meet so all you feel is shame
How about when you gotta feed mouths
And the money ain't coming in like it once came
When your people gotta get shot
For tryna play with this gang shit like it was game
What's it like? That's pain
That's pain, that's pain

Let me start with the P, that's where I grew up
Mexicans, meth heads, bums, and screw ups
Guess it's safe to say to make the wrong choice ain't hard
Mine ain't all good, but ain't no way I can't thank God
When blunts to the face in every place ain't odd
And everybody get a check, but they ain't got jobs
Niggas getting robbed and the cops ain't been called
That's how you know shits f*cked up
And everyone's f*cked up, they like how it feels
Smoking and sipping daily, snorting, popping them pills
Ain't gotta like it, it's real, that's how they like to deal
Some like D'angelo, just wanna know how does it feel?
'Cause they know how it feels not having everything you wanted
Know the right path, don't know how to get on it
Money in, money out, can't keep a penny to your name
And all they have to say is "what a pity" what a shame

Nobody knows all the trouble I see
Nobody knows my pain
Nobody cares 'bout the hell I go through
That's why I don't complain
It's my pain, my pain
I wear it like a badge of honor
This is my pain, my pain
Yeah this is what I have to conquer
This is my pain

With so much innocence as a child, what is it that makes us go wild
And go off into all kinds of shit we ain't know bout
Guess we grown, on our own, and it's bout the dough now
'Cause every time I go out it's like niggas wanna show out
Talking like they finna blow up, but never show up
Bunch of big ass kids, niggas better grow up
Out here going for the glory, but you got no guts
I'm cut from a different cloth, got this shit sewn up
Little nigga, grown up, now shit a little different
They doubted me a long time, that's what they forget to mention
Remember sitting in the kitchen, writing bars day and night
Too many words in my lines, I couldn't say 'em right
Too many thoughts on my mind, how can I paint 'em right?
But they couldn't see me even with me standing in they sight
And that's on every drop of blood in my veins
Get the f*ck out my lane, you couldn't maintain with my pain

Nobody knows all the trouble I see
Nobody knows my pain
Nobody cares 'bout the hell I go through
That's why I don't complain
It's my pain, my pain
I wear it like a badge of honor
This is my pain, my pain
Yeah this is what I have to conquer
This is my pain

Can your mind picture, a young nigga, liquor infested liver?
Some say his choices got him catching up to God quicker
Sometimes he shiver when he think of death
Then he just, take a deeper breath of that weed he got rolled in his swisher
Inhale, exhale slow
In hell is where he living ain't got nowhere to go
Still he's driven, by this vision he has of getting riches
And all the baddest bitches, the ones he sees in all the pictures
But all of this sometimes seems so fictitious
The shit is just agonizing it leaves him feeling malicious
'Cause he's sick of all the waiting and hoping, all of the praying
And saying he gone make it, he tired of all the wishing
'Cause fulfilling his wishes seems to be one of their biggest fears
They know that glory could make up for all his biggest tears
I'm from a place they like to throw us in then prison tiers
Tenfold times I was told to pull my pants up for years
Think about that, let it ruminate a minute
'Cause if we painting pain that ain't really do it, did it?
I'm from a state where half these niggas banging anything
They ain't scared of anything, and got they hands in everything
It's home sweet home though, everything is everything
Even though the blocks stay hot, like desert springs
The P done got me ready whatever weather this desert brings
Cali thugs love the sounds of guns, they clap and let 'em sing
Same sad songs echo out of every wake
Closer to you in that place with every breath you take
Shit ain't gone give, I gotta get it every moment
My pain is why I want it like I want it
I know that

Nobody knows all the trouble I see
Nobody knows my pain
Nobody cares 'bout the hell I go through
That's why I don't complain
It's my pain, my pain
I wear it like a badge of honor
This is my pain, my pain
Yeah this is what I have to conquer
This is my pain

I wear all this shit on my shoulders every minute
No one will ever get it
And even if I admitted truly how I felt
I'd be committed, like, "Hello 911"
My pain entered my soul a long time ago
Imagine swallowing pills to numb yourself at the young age of 5 years old
Imagine wanting to end it all before your story's told
Yet, I didn't fold...
I just stopped talking to God for immediate counsel
Roaming through life without faith can change your reality, harden your young soul
I stood y'all throughout my adversity, and personally
I used to dream of better days filled with what works for me
Blessings on blessings on blessings
But this life's lessons have taught me to walk with essence
Keep your head up love, don't allow it to be a muthaf*ckin obsession
That's what my father told me after rescuing my adolescence
It didn't stop the pain though
Years had to wither away before I saw the end of the rainbow
That's just my pain though
My pain

Nobody knows all the trouble I see
Nobody knows my pain
Nobody cares 'bout the hell I go through
That's why I don't complain
It's my pain, my pain
I wear it like a badge of honor
This is my pain, my pain
Yeah this is what I have to conquer
This is my pain