When I got time to think about the future, tell myself I just don't know
(I just don't f*cking know)
I'm looking to the sky and then the ocean with a yacht
And that shows how I want it all (How I want it all)
I always get the feeling my success I'm tryna reach, it moves too slow
(It's moving just too slow)
Admit that I been lacking motivation and been stressing, it's so hard to let it go
Hide these scars across my wrist, roll my pain up in this spliff
Ignore these voices in my head, said I won't amount to shit
Gotta make these ends meet somehow, tryna beat the odds don't know how
How to be brown, how to stay down, one fist up or one knee down
I just wanna see my people in the struggle finally make it
Be the same ones that's gon' doubt me with they hands out tryna fake it
Got me battling these demons with this mask on like I'm Riddick
Through the darkness and abyss, this pandemic ain' be shit
It's okay (It's okay) they don't know (They don't know)
How far I came where, how far I'm willing to go
It's okay (It's okay, they don't know (They don't know)
It ain't just me, but it's the team my whole family gotta eat just hold on
When I got time to think about the future, tell myself I just don't know
(I just don't f*cking know)
I'm looking to the sky and then the ocean with a yacht
And that shows how I want it all (How I want it all)
I always get the feeling my success I'm tryna reach, it moves too slow
(It's moving just too slow)
Admit that I been lacking motivation and been stressing, it's so hard to let it go (Go go)
It's ridiculous how the coronavirus f*cks up ya flow (It's f*cking up the flow)
And being overseas, it doesn't make much of a difference
When you have nowhere to go
It's not a dream here, but it was s'pose to
My biggest fear is trusting most people I'm close to
Who really got you when you're feeling down inside?
You're emotions you gon' hide cuz they cast that shit aside
This is a topic I don't like to have
But I already know I'm speaking on a lots behave when it come to
Supporting others tryna reach their goal
Nobody really in ya corner, so you're moving solo
When I got time to think about the future, tell myself I just don't know
I'm looking to the sky and then the ocean with a yacht and that shows how I want it all
I always get the feeling my success I'm tryna reach, it moves too slow
Admit that I been lacking motivation and been stressing, it's so hard to let it go