Meeks - Lost Thoughts Lyrics

I've been through the pain
Had enough of the drama
Been through the rain I'm way past the saga
Been through the wars
Been through the doors of hell
This is my story to tell
The shit that I've been through
Has made me the man I am today
Growing up I was a difficult yute
But I'd pass it off in my own way
I was fat and overweight
Used to feel like I weren't good enough
But there was something inside me that made me believe
I was destined for greater stuff
Had a loving family around me
But they never understood my pain
They didn't take me seriously
Told me its all inside my head and brain
I was bullied at home, mentally abused
That shit leaves you scarred and bruised
I couldn't wait to grow older
I couldn't stand for this shit any longer
My mom tried to give me everything
But the funds were limited
The last pound coin in her purse
She would throw my way without even thinking
A single mom, she gave her all
She even felt like leaving before
Grabbed her keys, told her she's done with us
We gave her grief but she still loved us
So that's why I've gotta make it
I've gotta make her proud
I've been so selfish but now I'm out my own cloud
I'm surrounded by a good crowd
I'm gonna show her she raised me right
This son of hers has seen the light
I just hope my brother can come around too
Can't stand the pain that he put her through
So I'm making dua that he will realise
This dunya is full of too many lies
Don't get sucked in this world
When we're destined for afterlife
I watched my brother put my mom through hell
I watched her tears fall
I couldn't stand to see the pain in moms eyes
So I wasn't really there at all
How am I suppose to look into her eyes
When her last hope couldn't stop her cry
I couldn't sit there and be there for her
I was too selfish to even try
I'm sorry Ama please forgive me
Gonna make this right believe me
Give you the world believe me
Give you the house you want believe me
Take you out of that job believe me
Give you everything you want believe
I've got so much belief that I'm gonna do this
Nobody's gonna stop me believe me
When I've made it i'm gonna be playing this
Looking back at the life that gave me this
'Cus bad times make strong people
I've learn from that shit it's time to make this
This is chapter two, the sequel
F*ck the past, f*ck the prequel
A new start, a new beginning
Me and my team, we are all equal
'Cus when you share the same ambition
The road becomes more achievable
The shit we are gonna make happen
For the average mind it's unbelievable
I've been through the pain
Had enough of the drama
Been through the rain I'm way past the saga
Been through the doors of hell
This is my story to tell
I've been through the pain
Had enough of the drama
Been through the rain I'm way past the saga
Been through the doors of hell
This is my story to tell