Mcdreary - So Scared Lyrics

I'm feeling hopeless but there's gotta be more
I've reached the edges of the map but I'm way too afraid to explore
I'm choking back my tears as I'm swallowed up by the shore
You say I need some therapy but I don't wanna talk anymore

I see the way that you've been distancing yourself
And I don't blame you, I've done damage, trust me I've done way more to myself
I'm so scared you'll hate me if you knew just how I felt
I'm so scared to lose it all if I reach out for help

I miss the way it seemed that you could see right through inside of me
You made a home under my skin, I felt your pain entirely
I never would have risked it if you weren't the one inviting me
But now you've changed the locks and now I struggle with sobriety

I burned some bridges when I realized that I had a spark
I only meant it as a beacon to guide me out of the dark
I've never been as careful as when I cupped my hands around your heart
I'm never sure of my own strength, but this time I held on too hard

I'm feeling hopeless but there's gotta be more
I've reached the edges of the map but I'm way too afraid to explore
I'm choking back my tears as I'm swallowed up by the shore
You say I need some therapy but I don't wanna talk anymore

I see the way that you've been distancing yourself
And I don't blame you, I've done damage, trust me I've done way more to myself
I'm so scared you'll hate me if you knew just how I felt
I'm so scared to lose it all if I reach out for help

I miss the way you picked my brain and all our ideas were the same
I miss the way you looked me up and down without me feeling shame
I know I'm too f*cked up for love, I'll be the one who takes the blame
All the things I'm missing make me resent all the things that I've gained

Jump the fence, cross the bridge, ima fix this
Flirt with death, catch her eye, blow a quick kiss
I'm at the edge, could lose my footing in an instant
It wouldn't matter anyways cause you're so distant

I'm feeling hopeless but there's gotta be more
I've reached the edges of the map but I'm way too afraid to explore
I'm choking back my tears as I'm swallowed up by the shore
You say I need some therapy but I don't wanna talk anymore

I see the way that you've been distancing yourself
And I don't blame you, I've done damage, trust me I've done way more to myself
I'm so scared you'll hate me if you knew just how I felt
I'm so scared to lose it all if I reach out for help