M.C. K~swift - Then & Now Lyrics

I found myself having an insecure moment
Listening to a dope emcee and seeing an opponent
Feeling as though the shine he was getting should have been mine
This year I'm turning 29, my plan's 11 years behind
I hate second guessing myself, it feels dumb as luck
Stressin over how these other cats is quickly coming up
Knowing I got the talent they got, if not more
Young emcees tellin me that I'm the top 4
As far as they concerned, so I keep pushing til the tables turn
Last thing on my mind is how my rhymes can help a label earn
Is that the cardinal sin?
Alright, I'll try to leave that out for the next article then
Play the super hustler role but man, it's hard to pretend
Cuz money don't drive me, I'm spittin to release the artist within
Starvin again cuz I stupidly spent money
Cooped up in my momma house like, how I'ma turn music to rent money?
Sick of turning hard work to I'ma get bent money
Cuz now I see what that did for me
If I knew then what I know now
Then I'd know when and I'd know how
To make which move and in what way
But then I wouldn't be who I am today
And I feel strong and I feel bright
And I'm doing great so everything's alright
And when I feel down I put on my cape and I fly
Like up, up and away
Yeah
I feel super
Super, super, super, super
I feel super
Super, super, super, super
Super, super, super, super, super
But I don't always feel like the freshest hero
On bad days my confidence drops to less than zero
I keep my head high, chin up with my shoulders back
Chest full of breath, always set to let the flow attack
When it comes to poetry, I feel so relaxed
I'm pretty well known in rap, somebody prob'ly told you that
I'm nice before you even ever heard
How my each and every word, is a fraction of a street affected nerd
With a revolutionary mind and a kind heart
Who loves to work with the youth and produce refined art
And that's worth a lot without any accolades
But sometimes I wish that I could turn the clock back a ways
Or at least set my problems to the side and back away
And not dwell on feelin like that for half the day
Cuz as the time passes I think, think, think, think
If I knew then what I know now
Then I'd know when and I'd know how
To make which move and in what way
But then I wouldn't be who I am today
And I feel strong and I feel bright
And I'm doing great so everything's alright
And when I feel down I put on my cape and I fly
Like up, up and away
Yeah
I feel super
Super, super, super, super
I feel super
Super, super, super, super, super
Super, super, super, super, super
Super
I crash landed on this planet now I'm standing
With a canon for a voice and a healthy understanding
That I'm granted with a chance to make a difference while I'm livin
And the gift is in it lasting much longer than an instant
I could have bought my ticket as an infant, no kidding
Born with yellow jaundice followed by a meningitis sickness
Life is precious so I keep my focus in the right direction
If I make a misstep, I give myself a slight correction
And I keep it moving, right now my mantra is keep improving
So if you wit' me then let's see us do this
All in together, walking like we're taller than weather
And I talk like I'm calling it better
I can see the future peeking through the looking glass at my past
I gotta laugh at some of the things that I'm past
I gotta laugh at some of the things that I've passed
I gotta laugh at some of the things that have passed
If I knew then what I know now
Then I'd know when and I'd know how
To make which move and in what way
But then I wouldn't be who I am today
And I feel strong and I feel bright
And I'm doing great so everything's alright
And when I feel down I put on my cape and I fly
Like up, up and away
Yeah
I feel super