M.C. Kidwell - Bottom Of The Bottle Lyrics

Young and lost searching for a sign
Found comfort in a glass thought it'd be fine
Friends and family they all gather 'round
But behind my smile a sadness profound
In the mirror I see a stranger's face
Chasing dreams but losing my place
Every sip takes me further away
From the man I used to be day by day
At the bottom of a bottle I'm too drunk to see
Friends don't like the man I've come to be
I'm the life of the party but it's all a disguise
Behind the laughter there are tears in my eyes
Nights blur together in a haze of regret
Moments of joy but they're easy to forget
I think they love me think they understand
But the truth is hidden in the lines of my hand
The echoes of laughter they fade away
Leaving silence where the music used to play
In the quiet I face the truth alone
The bottle's grip is a cold heavy stone
At the bottom of a bottle I'm too drunk to see
Friends don't like the man I've come to be
I'm the life of the party but it's all a disguise
Behind the laughter there are tears in my eyes
Searching for happiness in a liquid dream
But the high comes down tearing at the seams
I want to be loved want to be free
But this path I've chosen is not who I should be
One day I'll wake from this self-made hell
Find the courage and break the spell
Till then I'll struggle with every night
Hoping to find my way back to the light
At the bottom of a bottle I'm too drunk to see
Friends don't like the man I've come to be
I'm the life of the party but it's all a disguise
Behind the laughter there are tears in my eyes
So here I stand on the edge of despair
Looking for answers in the evening air
The bottle's empty but my heart is full
Searching for peace in the depths of my soul